New employee's work diary
In February of 65438+XX, it was sunny and sunny.
On my first day at work, I got up early. First, I can't sleep because of my inner excitement. Secondly, of course, I want to leave a good impression on my new boss and colleagues who are positive, diligent and earnest. Standing outside the company, I took out my mobile phone, cut my hair in front of the screen, adjusted my skirt, and solemnly walked in. Although the wind blew my hair about, my beautiful image was ruined by half.
To tell you the truth, I think I'm too serious. In my eyes, this company is actually not serious at all. Since I entered this company in the interview, I have been troubled by doubts, vigilance and doubts. This is really a strange company.
I still remember that my first interview was with a young man, about my age, not as serious and aggressive as other companies. He just chatted with me like a friend, which made my nervousness disappear at once, and I also easily talked about my experiences and specialties. Then he told me to go back and wait for the notice.
The next day, I received a second interview notice. This time, I walked into their meeting room. The young man who interviewed me before came in and introduced me to the man standing behind him. He said with a smile, this is Mr. Guo, the boss of our company. His tone is casual and relaxed, like introducing friends, and there is no sense of distance between employees and bosses. I quickly stood up to say hello, but I didn't believe it at all. In front of Mr. Guo, he is dressed in casual clothes, fashionable and trendy, with a faint smile on his face and a touch of laziness in casual kindness. The most incredible thing is the age of the boss, the post-80s in his early thirties. At that time, I was still whispering, maybe it was the boss's son!
The next interview only went deep into one side, and then told me that if both sides were ok, I could come to work tomorrow.
Walking out of this company, I am still confused and confused, which is far from what I wrote in the job search strategy book I read before. This is not an interview, it's a chat.
I didn't know those strange things were not strange until I went to work today. The employees are all working silently, and one employee is doing sit-ups and exercising. Just then, I noticed that there was another fitness machine in the office, but the boss was gone. The colleague who interviewed me enthusiastically led me to my desk and told me that if you have any questions or need help, you can ask everyone in the company and everyone will help you.
Sitting at my desk, staring at the computer in front of me, I quickly analyzed the current situation in my mind. Not only is the boss young, but the employees are all post-80s and post-90s, and the boss has disappeared. What illegal organization is it? A sense of foreboding crossed my mind, and then the colleague who interviewed me came to me. I'll pretend to be working at once, just wait and see what medicine they sell in the gourd.
"Hello, my name is Xiao Shao. Let me introduce you to your work and colleagues in the company. " Xiao Shao said enthusiastically.
"ok." I answered politely.
The morning was spent in this kind of doubt and incomprehension. Finally, it's time for dinner. Xiao Shao warmly asked me to have dinner with everyone. At this time, I finally couldn't help it. I carefully asked Xiao Shao why our manager Guo didn't see it all morning. Xiao Shao pointed with his finger. I looked in the direction pointed by Xiao Shao, and a small tent was lying quietly on the ground.
I stare big eyes and open my mouth in disbelief. "You mean Guo Jiangjun is sleeping in a tent? ! "
Xiao Shaoman said with distress: "Teacher Guo worked overtime last night and the day before yesterday. He slept for six hours for three days in a row. Let's go to dinner first, don't call him, let him sleep more. "
"Mm-hmm." I kept nodding my head to show my great agreement.
At this time, my heart became more suspicious. During lunch break, my mother called me and asked me how my new job was, how I got used to my first day at work, and how I got used to living alone. My tone is full of worry and distress. Always say that everything is fine, new colleagues, working environment and landlord. My mother was a little relieved and said something to take care of her health.
Although I told my mother this, I kept thinking that I must not tell my mother the truth, otherwise I would definitely resign immediately, even if it was serious, I would go back to my hometown to find a job. I don't want to ruin my dream of Shenzhen development for such a thing. I will sit tight and see what they are doing. My natural curiosity and character of breaking the sand pot kept me here.
In the afternoon, Mr. Guo came out of the tent. I have been secretly observing him because I think this person is the strangest. He yawned first, then stretched himself contentedly, came out of the office, patted Xiao Shao on the shoulder, touched Ronaldinho's head, and played a few jokes with Xiao Ning. Suddenly, I turned my attention to me. I quickly looked back and thought, Oh, no, I was found, but
At this time, Guo Jiangjun came up to me and asked with a smile, "How are you getting used to it?"
I quickly replied: "Fortunately, my colleagues took care of me."
Mr. Guo smiled and said, "Make yourself at home. Coming to our company is a member of our big family. If you don't understand or need help, you can ask. " Just like Xiao Shao's words.
I immediately nodded and said, "Xiao Shao told me everything. Thank you for your concern. "
Manager Guo smiled and said, "Well, get busy." After that, I went back to my desk and began to work seriously.
I couldn't help glancing at my new boss again. He is full of energy, serious expression and bright eyes. Suddenly found the other side of the post-80s boss. Maybe this is the real him, or maybe both sides are the real him? The reason is getting more and more chaotic. Well, don't think about it for the time being. Maybe only time can give me an answer. I shook my head and began to return to my work.
At the end of work, Xiao Shao came to say that there was a meeting. I quickly took a pen and paper and followed Xiao Shao into the conference room. The conference room is not very big, but it is neat. There is a small blackboard hanging on the wall, a pen under it, a small cactus on the table, and a big glass wall on the side of the next street. Sunlight shines through the glass, making the whole office look warm. I looked around and found a corner seat.
After a while, everyone came in. At this time, I found that I was the only one who took the pen and paper, and everyone else came empty-handed. I still remember when I was doing my first job, I was criticized by my boss for touching the meeting. That's really my bitter history. From then on, as soon as I heard the word meeting, I took a pen and paper, which almost became my conditioned reflex. At this time, I just prayed silently in my heart, don't criticize me for bringing paper and pen. As a novice in the workplace who just came out of school, I just hope that everything will be consistent with everyone's actions and never do anything "out of line".
"Xiao Zhang, how is the promotion of the new website?" Guo Jiangjun's words brought me back to reality.
"I don't think what you told me before about the benefits of closing the website. Without traffic, the website is useless. " Xiao Zhang said with good reason.
I quickly looked at this "hero" who dared to talk back to the boss and thought: This "angry youth" is really brave, dare to talk back to the boss openly, and it is too late for others to curry favor! After reading it, I was shocked. Isn't this the young man who just hooked up with Mr. Guo? I just envy him that he can "eat", and in the blink of an eye, I began to surprise him.
In the following time, General Guo and Xiao Zhang exchanged words. The argument is quite fierce, and there is a great momentum of beating tables and moving stools. It can be compared with the fierce scene of the debate between Meng Xiaojun and Cheng Wei about whether the company is included in "Chinese Partner". I was completely stunned by this scene, holding the pen tightly in my hand and not writing a word.
In fact, only when I am really ignorant. I've also heard a little about topics that have been debated for a long time, all of which are websites or something. For people who need help to solve some computer problems, they are really arguing about high technology. However, if you don't understand, you have to pretend to understand. I still sit up straight and my waist is straight. When Guo Jiangjun spoke, my eyes looked straight at Guo Jiangjun. When Xiao Zhang spoke, he looked directly at Xiao Zhang and nodded from time to time, listening quite "seriously".
Compared with my nervousness, others were quite calm, and Ronaldinho began to listen quietly. Later, he also joined the quarrel, refuting Guo Jiangjun for a while and questioning Xiao Zhang for a while. I'm the only one still in the fog.
About an hour later, I understood Mr. Guo's concluding speech: "Well, well, let's implement this plan first and see what the follow-up effect is, and then do the next step."
"Xiao Chen, maybe you don't know much about our project. Learn from Xiao Shao first Ask if you don't understand. It's okay. Take your time and get familiar. " Manager Guo suddenly turned to me.
"Uh-huh, ok." I quickly pulled myself back from the paste.
"Well, do you have anything to add?" Guo Jiangjun's eyes scanned for a week.
"I propose to order takeout as soon as possible, and my stomach is growling. Please raise your hand if you agree. " Xiao Yang laughed when he finished.
"I agree." Ronaldinho quickly raised his hand to cooperate with Xiao Yang.
"It is a' female man' and a' foodie' who are particularly active. Can you be a little reserved in front of new colleagues? " Xiao Shao said jokingly.
As soon as I heard it was me, I quickly said, "It doesn't matter. Actually, I'm hungry, too. "
"Fighting is fighting, people are iron, rice is steel, and you are hungry." Xiao Yang said in the tone of Meijia in ipartment, which made everyone laugh.
"We eat long, and Shao eats food is also a waste of food." Ronaldinho got to say that he was laughing at Xiao Shao's short stature.
The atmosphere suddenly relaxed, showing a scene of joy, and my nervous hanging heart was temporarily put back in my stomach.
In a short time, the take-away order came. Everyone ordered all kinds of porridge, only Ronaldinho ordered rice. He repeatedly said on the phone, "Auntie, you must give me more food as usual. The more the better." After that, I didn't forget to tease Xiao Yang: "Woman, don't accompany me?"
Xiao Yang pretended to be serious and said, "Be a goddess from today!"
"Don't think that eating less is a goddess, and the goddess should exude a temperament from the inside out ..." Facing Ronaldinho's nagging "female nerves", Xiao Yang responded with a supercilious look.
After a while, the takeaway came and everyone started eating around a table.
To tell the truth, it's the first time for me to eat around a table with a group of people who have only been together for one day. I was a little embarrassed, so I ate slowly and carefully.
At the dinner table, Mr. Guo watched the funny jokes in Weibo for a while, and then found a funny pictures for everyone to see. Ronaldinho and Xiao Yang also followed the excuse of constantly embellishing. I can't help it. I am a person with a low laugh. I tried to hold back several times and almost laughed. In order not to let myself spray rice, I only ate a little at a time, and then I simply stopped eating. I watched them for a while.
At this time, Xiao Shao began to tease me: "Oh, my God, the second little cypress is coming, and the appetite is so small."
I quickly explained, "No, I'm a big eater, but I'm not hungry today." In fact, this is true or false. I do eat a lot. I thought I was a foodie in the dormitory. I ate less today because I wanted to keep something, not because I was not hungry.
To ease my embarrassment, I patted my horse and smiled and said, "Mr. Guo, you look only in your early thirties." It's amazing to have your own company at such a young age! "
This time, Xiao Yang didn't hold back, and suddenly sprayed the porridge that had just been fed into his mouth. Then he smiled and said, "Manager Guo, it seems that you are getting more and more anxious."
I'm at a loss, confused and at a loss.
Mr. Guo joked: "This can only explain one problem. I am a mature man. "
Xiao Shao smiled and explained: "Mr. Guo is 86 years old and has not yet reached 30 years old."
Surprised, I also thought to myself, Oh, no, Ma * caught the horse's leg and suddenly felt a little embarrassed. Mr. Guo was a little embarrassed to see me, and quickly changed the topic. I'm actually grateful.
Talk over dinner. It's already afternoon 1 1. Time flies. Xiao Shao and Luo Xiao sent me back to the dormitory. Although I live not far from the company, they insisted on seeing me off, so I agreed.
After washing in the dormitory, I lay in bed at midnight 12, but I didn't feel sleepy. Everything I experienced today was replayed in my mind, thinking about it, and I smiled unconsciously.
Yes, although some phenomena in the company still puzzled me, these new colleagues really gave me a lot of warmth today.
Recalling my previous experience is out of place here. I don't know why I chose to come to Shenzhen at that time, and I haven't thought about whether an intern who is still at school one and a half feet can survive in this mixed Shenzhen. I just thought I would come with my classmates.
Eldest brother has a house in Nanjing, and my parents suggested that I go to Nanjing to find a job. Whether you can find a job or not, at least you don't have to worry about food and shelter, and you are safe and secure. But stubborn, did not adopt the opinions of parents. I am a restless person. I know this is not the comfort I want. I still want to exercise myself by experiencing something. But what happened later made me know that everything was not that simple. There are always some gaps between imagination and reality, and these gaps can only be realized when I begin to experience reality.
On the first day I came to Shenzhen, I began to rush about looking for a job. First, submit your resume online, and then go to the interview by car.
I still remember that the first person who asked me for an interview was a trade and sales company. In Futian, Mi Hu, I stayed in Baoan Shajing. Anyone who has been to Shenzhen knows how far it is. Go out at seven o'clock in the morning, take the bus for more than an hour, then take the subway for 50 minutes, and then transfer to the bus. It's past noon 1 1 after getting off the bus, and it's still scorching in Shenzhen in June, but I still have to ask passers-by how to get to the interview site. It was already 65438+ at noon when I found the interview company.
The interview in the afternoon went well. The interviewer told me that I could come to work the next day. Back to Baoan manhole at night, exhausted. I want to find a comfortable bed and have a good sleep, but I don't have much money with me I had to find a cheap hotel to stay in, and then I began to regret it.
The hotel is in a crowded commercial street, the room is a bit messy, and the quilt on the bed has a strange smell. I watched helplessly, so I could only spread my clothes on the bed and sleep under them.
The strange room was dark, and the lights outside flashed in from time to time, revealing strangeness. Lying in bed, I can clearly hear men's voices, women's laughter, children's cries, accompanied by messy footsteps, and the harsh sound of car horns outside.
I am a very timid person, and I dare not sleep upstairs alone at home. In such a mixed place, I can only pray that God will not let me have an accident. I stared warily around, pricked up my ears and listened to what was going on outside. I even got out of bed several times to see if the door was plugged in. At that time, I only had one wish, and it would be dawn soon, but that night was the longest. I fell asleep several times and was awakened by nightmares.
The next morning, I dare not look at myself in the mirror, my haggard face and two big "panda eyes", but I still have to cheer up, because today is my first day at work.
I arrived on time according to the time stipulated by the company. A lady asked me to sit in the office for a while and then left. I looked at this strange office. There was no one there, but I just put some bonsai in the corner. But from the moment I came in, I heard a voice coming from the back of this office. That's the sound of many people singing and playing games together. Although I was surprised, I didn't get up to look. Let's wait and see.
After a while, many people came out from behind. Each of them has a computer bag in his hand and wears a very formal suit. The lady who received me just now said something to a small, thin girl with a big mouth.
The girl with a big mouth looked at me, then came up to me and said with a smile, "Hello, my name is Pan. Come with me today to get familiar with our work. "
Although I was at a loss, I went with her.
Walking on the road, I kept asking the girl with a big mouth what our job is and where we are going. A girl with a big mouth will always answer, and then you will know. I feel uneasy. If another man gave me this answer, I would decisively say no at once.
Finally arrived at the destination, in a neighborhood near the window of the world, I saw Pan open his computer bag, which contained many bottles of medicine. She gave me a bottle and said, "Today, we will sell these things, bravely knock on the door and touch customers with our sincerity."
I took a look and almost passed out. I want to sell cockroach medicine.
Pan went on to say, "Let's start with this building now." I looked up, and the building stood tall and straight into the sky, with at least ten floors.
Later, I followed the girl with a big mouth to climb stairs, knock on the door and sell things. At the end of the day, my legs are swollen and my feet are swollen, which makes my ears ring.
When I went back to the company in the evening, I told my boss that I was not suitable for this job. The boss made some reservations, but I insisted on leaving.
Walking alone in a busy street, tears can't stop flowing downwards. If I leave here, where should I go? In such a big Shenzhen, I don't know where to go and where to live at night. I thought about buying a train ticket back, and I began to doubt myself and question myself. But on second thought, if I back down, I may never be able to prove myself. I'm going to stay at menstruation's house in Dongguan for a few days before I make a plan, so I got on the bus to Dongguan.
When I went to my aunt's house, I knew what it meant to be a guarantor. My aunt lives with her son, who is married and has children. Everything depends on my wife, where I live. I am also very careful and care about everything. Come to think of it, I haven't felt that kind of warmth for a long time. My warmth is my parents on the other end of the phone, but I dare not tell them everything about myself here. I can only lie to them that everything is fine, so as not to worry my parents.
Today, my colleagues in the company let me feel the long-lost warmth, an undisguised sincerity. Now I am grateful for a little warmth, and I always want to cherish it, because I have spent so long in anxiety, tension, bondage and running around, and I can't get a little warmth.
Sometimes I think everyone may be multifaceted. In order to survive or get a chance of promotion, we are willing to disguise ourselves. Suits, collars and smiles are all means of disguise. On the surface, we are brothers, but secretly, we are having an affair. More and more people are lamenting that the world is too impetuous and hypocritical, but what I see here is sincerity, friendship and passion. I began to be glad that I didn't leave easily. I think this group of people may become my first friends in Shenzhen.
Thinking about it, I fell asleep and had a beautiful dream. The dream is no longer anxious and anxious, but warm and quiet, with a kind of home warmth. I think my heart is settled, and I am no longer "unwilling to rest after picking up all the cold branches".
65438+February 17 It rained heavily and was very cold.
When I got up in the morning, it was raining cats and dogs. I have been in Shenzhen for almost a month. It seems that it is the first time to encounter such heavy rain. However, I am in a good mood and I am not affected by the weather at all. I hummed a little song, washed it and hurried to the company.
The company is not far from where I live. At that time, because Xiao Shao said that we would often work overtime during the interview, I found a hotel in the commercial street behind the company to stay temporarily. In view of my last hotel experience, I really dislike hotels now, but I can't help it. In order to work, all problems must be overcome. I often use a sentence to comfort myself, "Learn from a mistake". Is this actually "bitter"?
When I came to the company, no one else came, only the employees in another office worked there, and none of my colleagues who had a meeting for dinner yesterday were there. I just remembered that when I left last night, Mr. Guo said that we would come to work at ten the next day. I looked at my cell phone, and it was only 8: 30. Maybe it's because I experienced too much yesterday, which made me feel novel and warm. Today, I can't wait to come to the company early. The "fear of going to work" left by a previous company finally died.
Because I am not familiar with everything in the company, I am not in a hurry to say hello to those colleagues, so I can only sit in my position silently. At the end of ten o'clock, everyone came one after another.
Xiao Shao saw that I was already sitting there and smiled and said, "Xiao Chen is so early?"
I smiled and replied, "I didn't sleep early, so I came to the company."
Xiao Shao later gave me a lot of information. To be honest, I don't fully understand. It's all about purchasing, websites, foreign trade and so on. I study tourism management, and I have never been exposed to these at all. How can I understand it all at once? Suddenly, I felt a lot of pressure. I applied for copywriting planning before. The reason why I applied for this position is because I feel that I still have some writing skills, and I am interested in copywriting planning, hoping to develop in it, but it is really not as easy as I thought when I really know something and plan and promote it.
While reading the information, I searched the internet for terms I didn't understand and said "ask your mother something", which really worked!
"Xiao Chen, if you don't understand anything, you can always ask me." Xiao Shao saw me sitting there for a long time without talking, and smiled and told me this sentence.
"Well, ok, no problem for the time being." My answer is duplicity.
In fact, I have too many questions to ask, but my last job experience made me afraid to ask them easily. Every time I want to ask something I don't understand, the old employees are extremely reluctant to talk about it and make things difficult. Say half, leave half, and never say it again. If you ask it a second time, you just scold yourself. I have suffered a lot from this and often call my friends to complain. My friends comforted me and said that it was all like this. Stick to it and get along slowly. When you become an old employee, everything will be fine. Alas, this may be the unspoken rules in the workplace: big fish eat small fish, small fish eat rice and shrimp, and rice and shrimp eat mud. As for me now, I must be a lump of eaten mud.
I spent the whole morning "self-understanding" and "self-digesting" materials. I admit that I'm not a good employee, and I'm not ashamed to ask questions about my work, and I don't have the courage to "find fault".
"Xiao Chen, I have seen these materials almost once. Let me explain it to you, so that you may know more. " Xiao Shao estimated that I was embarrassed to ask, and came to work this afternoon to explain it to me.
"That's really too much trouble for you." I am grateful and sorry to say.
"Nothing, don't treat me like a boss. We are equal colleagues. Ask if you don't understand anything. You can ask again if you don't understand. " Xiao Shao said.
"Well, ok, thank you very much, Xiao Shao." I am grateful to say. I'm glad I met a good boss, but God is still very kind to me.
Xiao Shao was explaining the company's projects to me all afternoon. One is a new project and the other is an old one. The employees in the other office are all in charge of the old projects, which is what Xiao Shao called "traditional foreign trade" work. Our side is responsible for the new project, that is, the new website that was still in operation at that time. I am mainly responsible for the publicity, planning and promotion of the new website.