The translation notes of "Recalling the Emperor's Capital, Thin Pillow and Cool Weather" are translated, please answer!

With a thin pillow and cool weather, it feels like parting at first sight. It's colder when you get up, and you still sleep. After all, I can't sleep, and the night is as long as years old.

I also want to wait, but I want to ask for it (1). Fight for resistance again, and have already made plans. Ten thousand kinds of thoughts, many solutions, only lonely and tired. It's my whole life, and I've shed a thousand tears for you.

note (1) characteristics; The horse's bridle

translation rests on a small pillow and rests on a thin quilt, lying alone in the curtain. The cool weather touched the parting. Sleepless, counting louder. I lay down several times and sat up again, but I couldn't sleep anyway. A night looks like Sanqiu.

I once thought, turn the horse's head and go back, but I can't do it after I have set foot on the journey. Thousands of ideas, thousands of ways, all blocked, bored, can only bear. Even if I don't forget you all my life, I will never forget you, and I can't repay you. ocean deep is as righteous as a mountain.