Barbara Yung, 26, committed suicide: How lonely was she after her life's self-destruction and light?

There is a beautiful woman named Barbara Yung.

Looking back a long time later, Hong Kong in the 1980s was full of ups and downs.

Newspapers are full of stories, and TV is full of disputes.

That eventful autumn beauty, Qi Fei where beauty and lust coexist, money and fame coexist. Prosperity is a thousand turns. Sadness is also dramatic.

Life is like a dream.

One day in a thousand years.

At the center of these legends, there is a kind of beauty.

Her name is Barbara Yung.

She stood at the age of 26, like a streamer, decisively passed away and disappeared into the brightly lit rolling world.

She is the most classic beautiful girl.

Barbara Yung, she is a generation of breasts Zhu Shazhi.

Many years later, when people mention Huang Rong, they think of not Zhou Xun, not Ariel Lin, not Athena Chu, but Barbara Yung.

Her bright eyes are flowing, thick as wine, and smart as stars.

She is the only daughter of the Peach Blossom Island owner in the hearts of fans, and she is also an idol loved by thousands in the 1980s.

1982, The Legend of the Condor Heroes was cast in Hong Kong. This was a great event at that time.

More than 3000 actresses signed up for the role of Huang Rong.

At that time, Jin Yong was sitting in the town and personally selected the female host who was closest to the role.

The auditions were conducted in four batches.

The actors auditioned in batches and performed a Huang Rong play with the actors on the scene.

Barbara Yung's fame and appearance, this is not dominant.

She is the hostess of TVB. She has acted in several plays, but she is neither famous nor famous.

But she skillfully borrowed her mind and let Jin Yong decide her on the spot.

It is said that she put on an ancient costume and picked out a wicker, which wittily came from Jin Yong's face. As he handed it over, he bowed and said, "Huang Rong, the daughter of the little peach blossom island owner, has already met Elder Jin."

The description is full of coquettish.

It's hard to hide cunning in words and deeds.

This move made Jin Yong shine. In front of this woman, three points are right, seven points are evil, and three points are right. "This is the Huang Rong I am looking for."

Later, she got the role and entered the cast of The Condor Heroes.

1983 "The Condor Heroes" was broadcast, and the three places across the Taiwan Strait were crazy about it.

At that time, information was underdeveloped, there were not so many film and television resources, and there were not so many colorful idols. Once there is a martial arts drama, hundreds of millions of people will be entangled in it. Every day, just like a ceremony, they will stay in front of the TV at home on time, watching the grievances, crying for it, and fidgeting for it.

Barbara Yung's acting brings the role of Huang Rong to life. She has since become a generation of superstars.

Everyone knows her.

Everyone likes her.

Her resources are getting better and better, and movie reservations and activities are constant. She made money and bought a villa, which became an instant hit in the entertainment circle in Hong Kong.

The future seems bright. No matter how you go, there are surprises ahead.

However, in such a grand occasion, she turned on the gas at home and committed suicide alone in a sad midnight.

The mystery of Barbara Yung's suicide.

Barbara Yung was born in 1959.

Died in 1985.

Only 26 years old.

There are only four words on the suicide note: dear, I love you.

Because of the contents of the suicide note, people almost instinctively think of four words: suicide for love.

The boyfriend she was dating at that time was Don.

So Tang became the target of public criticism. As thousands of people have pointed out, all people are angry. But don still can't understand, don't know what happened.

He is stupid.

He said, I have no other woman, and she has no other man. Fighting is normal, so it won't be like this. ......

But in May of 1985, he couldn't reflect at all. He was accused of sadness, and he froze. He can only act in the company of Michael Miu.

On the day Barbara Yung was admitted to the hospital, he came to see her.

The scene was full of tears.

He shed tears, took out half a comb from his arms and put it in Barbara Yung's coffin.

This is a custom in Hong Kong. If the wife leaves first, take half a comb and put it in the coffin, which means: get married in this life and go with you in the next.

1985 May19, Andy Lau and others carried the coffin and sent Barbara Yung on the last trip.

When the coffin was buried, the whole of Hong Kong was a sensation. Countless fans were so angry that they broke through roadblocks, knocked on coffins and wailed, "Meiling, don't die."

"You killed Meiling."

"Give us back Huang Rong!"

Tang Dou didn't refute the whole process. Just silence. Only tears.

Since then, I have withdrawn from the scenery of Tang Dynasty. He stayed in his own world, thinking back and forth and admitting his mistakes.

But until today, there are still people who have not forgiven.

Since then, he has been labeled as a heartbreaker and lover. In film and entertainment circles, it no longer has its own position.

After many years, he returned to the rivers and lakes, trying to make a living by taking plays. But none of the roles you get are worth mentioning.

His life ended, and Tang's career came to an abrupt end.

In the early summer of 1985, their brilliance was buried. Since then, the beauty has rested in peace, and the ungrateful people have been ignored by public opinion for many years.

Everyone thinks it's all Don's fault.

But on 20 13, someone set up a Barbara Yung website. I'm not surprised that Barbara Yung committed suicide.

Who is this man?

Why do you say such things?

What does he know?

After uncovering the secret step by step, the world knows that the founder of this website was none other than Barbara Yung's Dutch boyfriend when he was a teenager.

His name is Rob Redbow.

I dated Barbara Yung in England for four or five years. It was my first love, and I knew a lot about her. Moreover, I witnessed Barbara Yung's inner black hole and various unreasonable places.

He told the world that Barbara Yung had committed suicide many times.

She is an illegitimate daughter.

It is strong, but it is also scarce.

Barbara Yung is an illegitimate daughter.

My father is a naval officer, with a wife and a house.

Her mother was criticized for her embarrassing identity. Barbara Yung has suffered from rumors for as long as he can remember.

She remembers others' pointing fingers, dependence on others, and struggle for her father with others ... These things go deep into the bone marrow and make her feel wronged and even humiliated by her existence.

Although she lived in her father's villa when she was a child, she was not honored. On the contrary, her mother's tears are always with her.

Later, her father died and she and her mother were thrown out.

No property.

No money.

There is no hope.

A suit of humiliation, abandoned, everywhere. Later, my mother went to England alone and married her stepfather. Leave her in the care of her uncle.

This is Barbara Yung's life before 13 years old.

13 years, mistress, illegitimate daughter, bitch, free from vulgarity, loneliness, exclusion, sense of marginalization ... became the key words of her life.

When the world can't give her true love and acceptance, she can only slowly grow armor, spears, broadswords, arrows, armor, high walls and thorns in her heart to fight against this hostile world.

So she is extremely precocious.

10 years old, she repeatedly said: This is a cannibal society.

123 years old, he was already familiar with the world. Like an adult, he analyzed the pros and cons, moved around and comforted his mother in every way in his letters.

Her precocity is admirable, but it is also distressing.

She hid her desires and pains, suppressed her childlike innocence, and put on a strong coat to cope with the storms of the world.

She is almost no longer naive, acting like an adult and being competitive like an adult.

13 years old, she negotiated with the British Immigration Bureau and got a visa.

/kloc-When she was 0/4 years old, she went to England and went to school. She is the only China in the school. She has few of her kind and no friends. But she said, either don't learn or learn well.

She still achieved excellent results in foreign schools. She was admitted to the textile design major of Cambridge University and started her eight-year college career.

During this time, the works she designed were also seen by the top British clothing companies and signed with her.

She seems to be going well.

But her mother said that behind this success was Barbara Yung's hard work.

She never gives up.

I have been proving myself: I am excellent.

Being seen is an instinctive human desire.

If they are not satisfied in the relationship, then they will fight for it elsewhere.

Barbara Yung is a person who lacks love.

She grew up without a real father, a perfect family and friends, and almost never really accepted it.

In order not to be forgotten by the world, people in need will strive for glory and stand in a shining place to tell everyone: Come and see me!

So Barbara Yung will never allow himself to be weak.

She began to take part in various beauty contests.

When I was in England, I ran for "Miss British Chinese" and won the second place.

1982, go back to Hong Kong to participate in the Hong Kong Sister Competition.

Only got the eighth place. This has become her biggest pain point. Repeatedly said to people: "Sister Hong Kong won the eighth place is the last thing I want."

She is so strong and eager to come here that she will never allow herself to be submerged.

Later, she won another chance.

This opportunity is also an opportunity to make her scenery infinite-TVB to accompany the wine.

As a host, she was completely desperate. Other newcomers are evasive and hesitant. She didn't. She is bold and lively, showing her charm in front of the camera with 100%.

She sings and she dances.

She wants to get ahead, and everyone should see her.

Barbara Yung's appearance is not outstanding. But her ambition and inner strength inevitably made her the focus of the screen.

She succeeded. She became a popular host and a film darling.

Many suicides in Barbara Yung.

The barren years nurtured her sensitive heart.

The lonely journey made her feel sad in the prosperity, applause and music.

Rob told everyone that during his acquaintance with Barbara Yung, she committed suicide many times.

They met at school when they were in England.

Then I fell in love.

Mother Weng objected. Because Rob is Dutch, he can't seem to give Barbara Yung happiness.

But Barbara Yung's reaction, we can all imagine.

Of course she won't give up.

Cold people don't give up fire. Even if the fire hurts itself;

Lonely and needy people will never give up love, even if its nature is complex and good or bad.

She confronted Weng Mu.

On the fifth day, she quietly swallowed a lot of sleeping pills.

This is the first time that she committed suicide by swallowing medicine.

Just like Pandora's box was opened, Barbara Yung's self-destruction began.

Later, Weng Mu compromised and let them associate.

Barbara Yung and Rob have been together for the rest of middle school. But this can't stop Barbara Yung's sense of low value, insecurity and anxiety.

Because relationships can't save people.

Relationships can't fix your loopholes.

Only you can save yourself in from the mire.

But Barbara Yung didn't know all this. She let her emotions, love, want and toss.

Later, she and Rob went to different universities. Separate two places. Suspicion, loneliness and insecurity engulfed her again.

She swallowed a lot of pills in the school dormitory.

When she was about to lose consciousness, she thought of a life that had not been started, and suddenly she didn't want to die. She moved to the wall with her last strength and raised her hand to beat the wall.

Fortunately, there was someone in the dormitory next door. I heard her cry for help and took her to the hospital.

This is her second suicide.

Later, she returned to Hong Kong, met and fell in love with Don.

Once, the reporter photographed them together. She was in a bad state, her face was dim and she was extremely haggard. The reporter asked her why she was unhappy.

She was timid for a long time and whispered, "I took the wrong medicine."

This is the third time she has committed suicide by taking medicine since records began.

Later, because Tang went to Taiwan Province Province to film, she couldn't stand it. I took sleeping pills again.

May 1985, 10 because of her strong desire for control, she couldn't stand the separation from Tang, the intimacy between Tang and others, and the indifference of Tang to her ... There were many contradictions between them.

Barbara Yung called a friend and told her about her inner pain.

A friend suggested that she go to Macau to play.

On May 1985, she ended her trip to Macau and returned to Hong Kong. At this time, she saw Tang's scandal and suddenly collapsed.

On May 3rd, 1985, Tang He was heard arguing in the dressing room. Barbara Yung cried and cried hysterically: "Then break up."

But that night, as soon as she got home, she began to call Don repeatedly.

She said to the paging station, "If you don't call me back, you won't see me."

Don still didn't answer.

She fell into a state of collapse.

That night, she called her friend: "Life is too hard. I don't want to live. "

On May 14, my friend went to Barbara Yung because I was worried about Barbara Yung. Knocked on the door for a long time, but no one answered. When I broke into the house, I found that she had left.

She sat on the sofa, wearing a red robe and not breathing.

Time of death is 3-4 am.

A generation of beautiful women made a hasty curtain call.

With a loud cry, the legend ended. Outside the period, there are countless people's regrets and countless people's sorrows.

A person with a low sense of value

I will try to prove myself.

But the emptiness inside is never perfect.

The most terrible thing in the world is not a ghost, not pain, but being abandoned.

Barbara Yung, from birth, is a person who has been rejected perfectly.

A mother is a mistress without a name.

Although I live in my father's house, I am inferior everywhere, and gossip never stops. People pointed at her and said she was unclean. Said she was a little bitch.

She has been living in emptiness.

She has been desperately asking for it.

Be famous, win, and be loved by others-not at all.

After being kicked out by her father's family, she lodged with her uncle. At that time, she had a feeling for her uncle that transcended her relatives.

"I remember when I was a child, I used to spoil my uncle and let him feed me first."

At that time, she was seven or eight years old and went to primary school, so she asked for love and affection, but because she was too lacking, she wanted to exaggerate to make up for it.

And this lack also led to her excessive control over her uncle.

Later, when my uncle has a girlfriend, she will be furious. "I am very unhappy in my heart and I am worried that my uncle will be taken away."

So she will be spoiled in front of her girlfriend and in her uncle's arms. It's like swearing sovereignty.

Because of crossing the line, the scene is always embarrassing.

So my uncle's girlfriend either loves her very much or hates her very much.

When she arrived in England, she did the same thing to Rob. I don't want to leave for a moment, but I always want to see it.

When she was in love with Tang, she often had nightmares and woke up in the middle of the night and said, "I dreamed that Tang didn't want me again." Then cry in the dark.

She is like a frightened bird.

Fear is too trembling, walking on thin ice.

As a neglected child, her sense of security is-10000.

Others gave 100, which is far from enough.

Given 1000, it's still not enough.

You have to give 10000 to make it even.

Without it, you're still scared or upset.

But there is no such person who keeps "giving" in the world. In the troubled times of the world of mortals, there are many needy families with different faces. Everyone is begging. Everyone wants it.

Her British boyfriend is.

So is Don.

In the end, they couldn't give it.

The emotional bank has been overdrawn, and there is no balance to withdraw.

On May 13, Tang turned off his phone. He refused to answer Barbara Yung's phone. Later, in an interview, he said: I didn't know why at that time. I just didn't want to say anything, just wanted to be quiet.

His refusal became the fuse of Barbara Yung's suicide.

She resolutely hit the wall.

No more looking back, no more lust, no more desolation.

Only save yourself.

Barbara Yung's growth is full of intangible pain.

No one has ever seen these pains, just as no one has ever seen her.

People with unsatisfied childhood will open their mouths and say: I want it, I want it, I want it. ......

They will degenerate into babies in the intimate relationship between mother and baby, and project their abandoned parents onto their lovers.

They will ask their lover for something they can't get in childhood. For example, going to amusement parks, lollipops, and 24-hour companionship that I have longed for since I was a child.

Once they don't get it, they will repeat the trauma of childhood. Be swayed by considerations of gain and loss, be agitated, feel abandoned, and be swallowed up by helplessness and despair.

For these reasons, Barbara Yung has been living a hard life.

She has a successful career and a great reputation, but under the fame, she is still a restless child.

But writing here, I still want to say that we can understand Barbara Yung, but don't follow Barbara Yung's example.

Because fate can be changed.

Adler said that everyone's childhood experience is not the decisive factor.

Because the meaning of life is not determined by circumstances.

Decided by free will.

How do we explain that events and reality give meaning to life?

You can say that childhood is a kind of trauma. You can also say that childhood is a reminder.

You have different understandings, different actions and different endings.

People are actors. Not a responder. Everyone can decide how to deal with external stimuli.

Therefore, Ada Choi was born in a poor family, but he was very happy.

Therefore, Sun Li's childhood was extremely miserable, but now his career and family are both fruitful.

Remember, free will will run ahead of the trauma and lead your life. How you lead yourself is the most important thing in life.

You are your own master.

Finally, I hope the tragedy in Barbara Yung can end at 1985.

I hope everyone who reads this article can live with will, not react with emotion.