The awakening novel of solar term teacher

I heard that this is love.

Although the weather was cold, I came to him alone.

But he had a beautiful woman in his arms,

When I fell into the grief of lovelorn love,

So people say I'm happy.

In my life, I met two men,

The person I love deeply, but my life is at stake,

Someone I hurt, but still together.

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The first quarter bitter youth (1)

I heard that this is love, slightly sweet and deeply bitter. Looking at the two people living alone in the room, my eyes warmed up and I shed my first tear since I was born.

Turning around, I put my heavy gift at his door. I wonder if he can still look forward to what's inside as he used to? Maybe not.

I remember I told him the day before yesterday that I would like him for life, and he also said that he would like me for life. However, at this moment, he let other women settle in his heart. It turns out that love hurts, and my heart is being cut by a knife. ...

I once thought about many possible pictures of our meeting again, including him waiting for my train despite the cold, the warm thermos he handed me, and the way he cherished the gift he gave me, but I never thought that when I wanted to surprise him, I was extremely scared.

His name is Mi Kaixuan. I had no intention of taking a vacation, so I met him, a man I regarded as my lifelong lover, and an unintentional encounter. We promised this life. For him, I can get on the train regardless of the cold of winter vacation, just to spend the holidays with him.

The oath changed, and we finally turned and left.

I know Michael Xuan is like my finger juice sand. When I relax a little, he will go with the wind and finally leave me. He is a flower-like person with a beautiful face given by God. I know he is a mythical white horse, not a Cinderella who can match a white horse. Only now, the thought of his departure makes my heart ache.

The pain can't stop, tears keep flowing. I finally didn't look back, because the wound had been torn, and I didn't want to sprinkle salt on it.

After two years of love, I came to the last step. I didn't hear him say goodbye, but I added a period to it.

I stood in the cold wind with a small suitcase for a whole hour. I don't know where to go. Should I go home? Then tell my so-called friends what's wrong with me and wait for them to laugh at me?

I don't want it!

I have no friends here, but I have no face to go home. It seems that I only have one way now.

The only way is the only person I know from Mi Kaixuan, but my fate with him is in conflict, and every time we meet, it will end in discord. However, he is my only hope now. Hum, it turns out that I have reached the end of the road.

Just as I was thinking about the opening remarks I should have when I met him, he appeared in front of me and seemed to know my purpose. As soon as I came, I picked up my luggage and walked to his house.

"Mo Yanhai, do you know?" I asked him curiously.

Does he know that Mi Kaixuan has a new lover? How else would he know I had nowhere to go?

But he didn't answer my question. He just whispered a sentence when he turned around. Although it was quiet, I heard it. He said I was really happy.

Happiness? I sneer. Today I am lovelorn, but some people say I am happy.

In the second quarter bitter youth (2)

Because the Spring Festival hasn't arrived yet, Mo Yanhai's family only has his sister Mo Yanduo at home. Mo Yanduo's eyes were full of envy when she saw me.

I gave a wry smile. Is my experience so gratifying in the eyes of others?

I thought I could complain to Mo Yanduo when I came here, but I didn't expect her to envy me so much for losing Mikaixuan. I sighed and entered the room. At this moment, my strong face was finally torn, and I fell on the bed and burst into tears.

A relationship, I thought I could love it all my life, but now I know that love is just a bud, so fragile that it will wither when the wind blows.

I don't know how long I cried. When I walked out of the room, Mo Yanhai and Mo Yanduo were gone. Hearing the sound from the balcony, I walked slowly over and saw Mo Yanhai answering the phone.

I know it's not good to eavesdrop on other people's phone calls, but when I saw Mo Yanhai's mysterious appearance, I put my ear to the wall and heard Mo Yanhai's voice that she deliberately pressed her ass. I'm almost certain that something is wrong.

"She is still crying in the room." Mo Yanhai said on the phone.

I wonder, is she me in his mouth?

I don't know what the other party said, Mo Yanhai replied: She is really happy.

Is she me again? Why does he think I am happy? Who's on the other end of the phone? Why do you care so much about me?

It doesn't matter who it is. Now I'm so tired, so tired, I don't want to think about who cares about who and who hurts who. I knocked on the door, and Mo Mohai turned to see me and hung up the phone in a panic. I told him that I was going out for a walk.

Walking alone in the street, the weather is very cold, but the number of people has not decreased. I let tears flick, and people around me come and go. No one looked back at me, as if it were just a grain of dust, which made everyone ignore my existence.

I clearly remember the same situation when I first met Mi Kaixuan. At that time, I was like a lost person, constantly looking at passers-by with eager eyes. I looked back countless times and finally found him. He took me to his house.

But now, he is pregnant, how can he think of my existence? No matter how many times I turn around, I still can't see him.

I happened to pass by a boutique and looked at the sign on it. It was the shop that Mi Kaixuan and I often went to, and we walked in gently, and it was still our former boss. The goods here are still the most fashionable, the only difference is that there is no Mi Kaixuan around me this time.

When the boss saw me, he immediately stopped what he was doing and greeted me warmly. I smiled and asked him if he had any new products. I picked a favorite and bought it.

When I was checking out, my boss suddenly stopped me and put a crystal ball into my hand. I looked at the crystal ball, very delicate, with the words I love you shining on it. I thought it was a product recommended by my boss. I shook my head and gave it back to him.

I told him that the crystal ball was expensive and I couldn't afford it, which was also my truth.

However, he told me that someone made it for me, saying it was for the woman I love.

I still haven't. I think Michael ordered it. This crystal ball was given to that woman that day. It's beautiful, but I don't deserve it.

When I walked out of the boutique, I heard the envious voice of the boss: what a happy woman.

The third quarter bitter youth (3)

When I went back to Moyanhai, I saw a woman with Mike Kaixuan on the road, and she was accompanied by a man, but it wasn't Mike Kaixuan. When I saw him, both of them let go of each other.

Seeing what they did, I was curious. They don't know me, so why are they so flustered after seeing me? They seem to be hiding something.

What could it be? Is it about me?

Without any conversation, we passed by in the sea of people. This is what I heard the woman tell the man that I am the happiest woman in the world.

Another person said I was happy. At this moment, I want to rush to her and say, yes, I used to be the happiest person, but my happiness was taken away by you. Now happiness is just a moment for me, and it has become blowing in the wind.

Originally, I was going back to Moyanhai, but my feet went into the park and sat on the cold stone bench. I looked at the sky without stars, as if I saw despair and wanted to sleep on a stone bench. At this moment, I saw a line of crimson characters on the wooden pillar. I'm curious because my name is on it.

"Brother Su Kege, I love you all my life." I know this is not written by Mai Kaixuan, because I know his handwriting. Who wrote that? Who else do I know here? Just now, I called Mo Yan Haitong. Who cares about me?

"So there you are. It's very cold. Go home. " While I was meditating, I heard Mo Yanhai's voice.

Very low, but very gentle. He has never done this to me before. I know he's changed. He is no longer cold to me, but why?

I asked him who was on the phone just now and he said it was someone I didn't want to mention.

I didn't ask again, but turned to leave, only to see him looking at the wooden pillar engraved with my name, and his eyes were so gentle.

The fourth quarter bitter youth (4)

Today is Mike's birthday, and I went with Mo Hai. When I saw Michael, I couldn't help hugging him. When he saw Mo Yanhai, he casually pushed me away.

The atmosphere of the birthday party was very strange, and everyone present was very strange. I sat there and saw Mi Kaixuan sitting there with that woman. He didn't introduce me to who she was, nor did he mention us. It seems that our past is just a dream of mine.

When I came to the top floor, I saw Mo Yanhai smoking there. He saw me, threw the cigarette butt into the trash can, came to my side, put my head on his chest, and he said he could cry if he wanted to.

"Why didn't he finally say he didn't love me? Why has his arm become so cold? "

Mo Yanhai didn't speak, just stood there quietly listening to me.

"Why do you become so strange? You weren't so kind to me before. You would laugh at me if you saw me like this before. " Looking up at Mo Yanhai with tears, I felt a flash of pain in his eyes. I wonder what he is thinking.

"I have never changed, I am still the same person." Mo Yanhai answered me like this.

Mo Yanhai's cell phone rang. This is a message. When he was ready to open it, he saw me beside him. He put his mobile phone in his trouser pocket. I wonder what that message is and why he doesn't want me to see it.

Quickly put his hand into his trouser pocket, took out his mobile phone and opened the short message just now. It's from Mo Yan. She said: Your heart must be very painful. Looking at Mo Yanhai, I asked him what would hurt him, but he didn't speak. Put his cell phone away.

Late at night, we all stayed at Mike's house. When I was sleeping soundly, a cough came into my ears. I recognized it from Mike's room. I got out of bed and went to his room.

When I walked into Mike's room, I saw him lying on the floor with his hands on his chest and his eyes full of pain. I helped him to bed and picked up a bottle of medicine on the counter. There is a note under the bottle, which says: Remember, you can only eat two tablets at a time.

The handwriting is the same as that on the wooden post. I asked Michael who left the note, but he didn't answer me. He just looked at me with envious eyes. He said that someone loves me more than he does.

Then I watched him fall asleep and had to go.

Section 5 Bitter youth (5)

The next day, when I was going back to Moyanhai, I didn't see Michael see us off. I feel a little sad in my heart. Is two years of affection so insignificant to him? Even the final farewell is so far-fetched

Mike can put it down, but I can't. I waited there until noon. I still haven't seen him go downstairs. I can't wait. I rushed to his room, only to find him lying on the bed, motionless and pale as a corpse. No, he's already a corpse.

Mi Kaixuan died, clutching a piece of paper that read: Su Kege, he loves you.

I have no idea why. I don't know who he says he is. All I know is that I don't want him to leave. I held him and cried gently.

Mo Zhenhai then came in and saw the dead Mi Kaixuan. He sighed and said deeply, "I thought he would live through this year."

I turned around and looked at Mo Yanhai and asked, "You know, why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you tell him that he would die?"

Mo Yanhai told me that day that Mi Kaixuan was an orphan when he was eight years old. His parents died not by accident, but by suicide, because his father suffered from hereditary heart disease. Later, my mother died of double suicide. At that time, Mi Kaixuan learned that he also had a heart attack.

"So, he's not empathizing, he just doesn't want me to commit suicide to accompany him, like his mother, right? He loves me, doesn't he? " I shouted.

Mo Yanhai put my head on his chest and kept stroking my loose hair, while I kept crying.

"Mike said that there is a person who loves me more than him. Do you know who he is? " I asked.

"Yes, but you hate him."

Finally, he didn't tell me who that person was.

Mikaixuan is dead, so I don't need to stay here. I offered to go home.

Mo Yanduo called me to her room and she said, "Do you really remember?"

I looked at her doubtfully. I don't understand what she means. Maybe I don't understand why she knows. Yes, two years ago, I lost my memory, not completely, but just some memories. But how did this Mo Yanduo know?

Look at my reaction, don't give a wry smile. She said, "If he didn't love you, I really wanted to kill you." That expression is true. I saw hatred in her eyes.

"Who is he?" I asked.

"Who is he? You hate him, but do you know that you are the most hateful person? "

No matter how I ask, she won't tell me who that person is. The only thing I know is that that man loves me more than Michael, but I hate him.

When I fell silent, Mo Yanduo told me that I was pregnant, and I was shocked again. Yes, my mother said I was pregnant two years ago, and then for some reason, the baby was gone. I was 18 years old that year.

"The child is Mo Yanhai." This is the most incredible thing I have ever heard.

In the sixth quarter, my memory is a little damaged (1)

Before I left, I went to a boutique. I asked the boss if the crystal ball was still there. The boss said it had just been taken away. I asked him strangely, isn't this what Mike ordered? But Michael Xuan is dead. How could he get it? My boss told me that this is not what Mike ordered. He saw my bracelet and said it was ordered by the person who ordered it.

But I clearly remember that this bracelet was given to me by Mi Kaixuan.

On the day I left, Mo Yanhai took me to the station. That day, I really wanted to ask him if I was pregnant with his child. But in the end, I didn't say anything. I got on the bus with a small suitcase and a letter written by Mo Yanhai.

The moment the bus left, I looked out of the window and saw tears in Mo Yanhai's eyes, but he had a crystal ball in his hand.

I opened the letter he gave me, which contained few words: Remember to be happy. It's just the handwriting that makes me tremble, because it's exactly like a wooden pillar.

I suddenly understood who the man in Mike's mouth was. It turned out to be Mo Yanhai.

But I still can't figure out what happened between Mo Yanhai and me. Why is the child I was pregnant with his? Didn't I know him through Mikaixuan? Or I have known Mo Yanhai for a long time, but why did Mo Yanduo say that I hate Mo Yanhai?

The bus went through the tunnel and ran into a row of guardrails. Suddenly, I fell into darkness.

My head hurts like tears, and my mind keeps breaking into Mo Yanhai's figure. I saw a woman like me. She has a slight belly and a sharp fruit knife in her hand. She walked to Mo Yanhai step by step, and then stabbed Mo Yanhai with a fruit knife.

Mo Yanhai didn't cry, but looked at her deeply with tears in her eyes and said quietly, "Brother Su Ke, I love you ..."

When Mo Yanhai was dizzy, she kept beating her abdomen until the child miscarried.

When I woke up again, I finally knew that the woman who looked like me in my dream was not others, but myself. It turns out that I thought I killed Mo Yanhai.

After sleeping in memory for two years, I finally know the answer.

Section 7 Memory is a little hurt (2)

Two years ago.

My good friend Chen Feifei and I went to the city to buy books. In the bookstore, I met Mo Yanhai. He has a book in his hand. I have been looking for it for a long time. I asked the manager that there was only one left here, but I knew there were not many opportunities to come to the city.

I carefully pulled Ramoyanhai's sleeve and asked him if he could give me the book. He looked me up and down, and then took the book to the counter to check out.

"What kind of person is this?" I pointed at him and really wanted to scold him.

"Come on, city dwellers are more proud. Buy it next time. " Chen Feifei pulled me.

I can't help it It's no use being angry when everyone is gone. I just picked out some books and went to the counter to check out.

Out of the bookstore, Chen Feifei and I wanted to find a small shop to eat, only to find that Mo Yanhai was leaning against the stone pillar and looking at me for a while.

"It turns out that this book is romantic. I don't think I need to play. Anyway, if you like it, I will give it to you. " With that, he put the book in my hand and left.

When I opened the book, I saw a name and a phone number left on it.

That's how I met him, a man in a completely different world from me.

What is even more unexpected is that we actually fell in love. Soon, I found out that I was pregnant.

Chen Feifei has changed since I fell in love with Mo Yanhai. She is not as kind to me as before. Every time she sees me, it's like seeing an enemy. I can't say why. From then on, everything she did was especially aimed at me.

One day, my mother came to see me. In the face of my mother's arrival, I was both curious and scared, because I was afraid that she would know about my pregnancy, but what I didn't expect was that she came for this.

"You shameless man, have done such a thing?" My mother screamed as soon as she saw me.

"Mom, I made a mistake." I'm covering it up.

"Is it appropriate to get pregnant so young?" My mother scolded me and slapped me in the face.

How did mom know I was pregnant? I didn't tell her that no one knew about it except Mo Yanhai and Chen Feifei. How did mom know?

Looking at my slightly bulging abdomen, my mother went home in a rage.

Section 8 Memory is a little hurt (3)

One night, it was very cold. Chen Feifei knocked on my door. I was scared to death when I saw her clothes messy. I quickly carried her into the room and kept asking her what was wrong. She just cried.

I was not born to comfort people. When I saw Chen Feifei crying, I just sat there quietly. When she finished crying, she said to me, "Mo Yanhai is not a person."

She said Mo Yanhai didn't want me to have his baby, and told my mother the news, asking her to force me to have an abortion, but he didn't expect my mother to do so. Then he threatened Chen Feifei to sleep with him and let me have this baby.

After listening to Chen Feifei's words, I stood up involuntarily, took a fruit knife and ran to Moyanhai's home.

I never thought that Mo Yanhai would treat our feelings like this. Now that he has done it, he has to admit it. Why do you still hurt me so much? Involve my friend in this.

At that time, my mind was blank. I just wanted to get justice for Chen Feifei and rehabilitate my feelings.

Seeing my appearance, Mo Yanhai was a little surprised, but still very enthusiastic. Seeing my slightly bulging abdomen, his face showed joy, but I didn't notice it at all.

"Do you love me?" I asked softly.

At that time, before Mo Yanhai could answer, he stabbed him with a knife. He didn't cry, but looked at me deeply and repeated, "Brother Su Ke, I love you ..."

When I woke up again, I had no children and that memory was gone. The only thing I have is a train ticket. I don't know why I have that train ticket with me. As if to find something back, I came to this city alone again, and it was at this time that I met Mike Kaixuan.

Section 9 This is called love (1)

I finally know why I am pregnant with Mo Yanhai's child, and I finally understand why he said I hate him. I really hate him, but why do people say he loves me?

I'm not badly hurt. I applied for discharge. When I walked to the station, I bought a ticket back to the city. Maybe I should ask.

When I came to Mo Yanhai's house, I felt that the atmosphere in his house was not very good. His eyes are red, but the trash can next to Mo Duoduo is full of paper towels to wipe tears. When I appeared, they stood up by mistake.

I walked beside Mo Yanhai, and I asked, "Did I give birth to your child?"

"yes." Although Mo Mohai doubted my question, he answered it honestly.

"Then let me ask you, does it make you angry that I am pregnant with your child?"

"No."

I looked at Mo Yanhai and told him what Chen Feifei had repeatedly said.

"Chen Feifei is the shameless woman. Well, I just got home that day. I saw her naked and begged Mo Yanhai to have her. It would be nice to say that Mo Yanhai threatened her now. " Mo Yan smiled more.

I looked at Mo Yanduo and then at Mo Yanhai. His eyes only have true feelings.

I finally understood a series of things. It turned out that everything was Chen Fei's move, but I walked in.

Smiling, I turned to leave. I know this city no longer belongs to me. There was once a man who loved me deeply, but I stabbed him.

I know, I have no face to face Mo Yanhai. I can't imagine what he would think if I made out with Mi Kaixuan in front of him in the past two years. I don't know if Tommy's heart will hurt when I show him the gift he gave me in triumph.

I know what they mean by happiness.

Mike said I was happy because he loved me, but after his death, someone who loved me more than him continued to love me.

The boutique owner said I was happy because two boys bought the same girl a present in his shop.

The woman who was with Mi Kaixuan that day said that I was very happy because she knew that Mi Kaixuan had made her perform a play in order not to make me feel sad about his illness.

……

"It's so late, where are you going?" Seeing that I was leaving, Mohaila stopped me.

I turned around and looked at him with tears in my eyes. I tried to break free, but I jumped into his arms.

Section 10 This is called love (2)

It turns out that this is called love, which is a little stinging and sad, but still happy.

When spring comes, the city is very lively. Mo Mohai took my hand and strolled in the square. He said there would be fireworks at night, and I said I liked it. Then he sat on the cold slate and let me sit on his lap.

Spring is blooming, but this spring is particularly lively, because I became the bride of Mo Yanhai.

I thought of Chen Feifei and called to ask about my friend. My friend said that Chen Feifei went to prison because she had a crush on her boss, who had a wife and had a good relationship. In order to break them up, Chen Feifei drugged the proprietress's tea, and then the proprietress had sex with her driver.

The hospital found out that the boss's wife was under drug control, so she was very confused. Finally, the police found the remaining drugs in Chen Feifei's bag.

Accompanied by Mo Yanhai, we went to the local police station and saw me with Mo Yanhai. I saw Chen Feifei's eyes full of hatred.

"Friends are not used to hurt. If friends are based on utilization, I think we are no longer friends. " I said softly to Chen Feifei.

"Why are you still together? Why can you all be happy and I can't? " Chen Feifei seems to be crazy.

"Happiness is based on feelings. How can you be happy if you treat love wholeheartedly and never give your feelings? By the way, I'll give you another sentence. I am married to Su Kege. "

Chen Feifei wanted to say something to me, but Mo Yanhai left me behind and took me away.

Love is sacred, and insincere people can never get together.