Mother's remorse
As a result, the number of times I look in the mirror has increased. Looking at my lips carefully, I noticed a small protrusion on my left lower lip.
It has been more than ten years since I was stabbed for the first time in my memory.
? Our place is very close to Shaanxi, and less than an hour's drive across the Yellow River is the boundary of Hancheng. At that time, peppers were just emerging in our region, and Shaanxi was earlier than us, so many pepper farmers had large pepper trees. The mature season of pepper is just summer vacation, and the harvest period is not long, so it is not easy to operate with thorns. Many pepper farmers drive tricycles to our area to find someone to pick peppers. Fifty cents a catty, from five o'clock in the morning to eight o'clock in the evening a day, people who are faster than ten hours, do not exceed 60 kilograms, and do not reach 30 yuan. However, farmers are hardworking and brave after all. Many villagers can't get money at home, so they discuss and encourage each other and go to Shaanxi to pick peppers together.
? Maybe I was young, or my mother wanted me to go out to play, so she took me when I went. When the tricycle rumbled along the Yellow River, people in Memory Village talked happily about how yellow the water was and how many boats were floating on the Yellow River-they called them "sails". That was the first time I saw a boat. At that time, naturally, I couldn't think of anything. How does the water of the Yellow River move beyond the sky? I can't think of sailing alone in the blue sky, just watching everyone happy.
? I remember my oriental family is very good, and there is a child about my age at home. I forgot whether I am lazy and afraid of hardship or adults can't bear the scorching sun and peppers in the pepper field. Anyway, I remember playing with my boss's children. There are many ducks and geese in the host's house, so every day my children and I will go to the river at the foot of the mountain to put ducks. The river is clear and there are crabs and fish. There are reeds and unknown plants on the shore, and one can stop bleeding. Sometimes when I come back at night, I go to the fields to mix corn and pick beans. At that time, I really felt happier in other people's homes than in my own.
? One day at noon, the boss asked me to call people from other places back for dinner. There are many valleys in the Loess Plateau, and there are often big holes washed out by rain. We call it overpass. Unfortunately, when I was walking on the road that my foot stepped on, I fell into the overpass. Immediately, I was in a coma. I don't know what happened later, but I heard my mother crying and telling my aunt in the village that if anything happens to me, I don't want to live. My mother was frightened. When my boss found out that I hadn't come back after such a long time, he personally called for it. People come up and look for me, so they look for me. Finally found himself in a coma at the bottom of the overpass. Maybe a branch or something penetrated my lips. I stayed at the bottom of the overpass for a long time and there was too much blood. The traffic in the village is inconvenient, and there is no big hospital. I can only drag me to my host's house first, and then the host will find a car. The villagers are simple, and they may have never seen such a big bleeding. Plus being in a coma for a long time, my mother was frightened I really thought I was unconscious from now on. If she is really unconscious, she will always blame herself and can't control herself.
? At that time, I was still young and didn't understand the meaning behind what my mother said. If anything happens to me, I don't want to live.
? Later, sometimes at home, my mother sometimes asked: Remember that time when you fell into the overpass when you went to Shaanxi? I usually say, I don't remember, I have long forgotten. Actually, I haven't completely forgotten. When my mother talks about this, she usually smiles and uses a particularly relaxed tone. My mother seldom tells me about the past, most of which are hard and full of hardships. I talk a lot about houses, often very sad and excited: Do you know how many houses our family used to live in? Not because rich people live in many houses. As long as you have the strength, you can pick out all the places in the loess plateau for you to choose, and find a geomancer to have a look, and you can dig out several houses for yourself. My mother said that my father was lazy and never dug his own cave. They are all caves left by others after they moved away. My mother sometimes regrets and is unwilling: at that time, our family had to repair the house, and our family could have repaired several rooms. With the rise of coal mines in the 1990s, guns are king, and courageous villagers go to Zhanshanbao Coal Mine. My uncle also rented a coal mine near the county seat, and my father followed him. According to my sister, when my dad returned to the village, everyone in the village said, hey, is Manager He back? However, farmers are short-sighted, muddle along and don't know how to hoard assets for themselves. Later, my uncle's coal mine closed down, and my father came back despondently. He only brought back the first 2 1 inch color TV set in the village and three boxes that should be as big as tape recorders.
? I like Shi Tiesheng's writing, especially his description of his mother. Gradually understand what my mother said: if anything happens to me, I don't want to live. All mothers take their sons' misfortunes on themselves. They will be gratified by their son's success and will blame themselves for his misfortune, but they will not let their son know. After going to college, I felt particularly disappointed and lost in the first year. /kloc-When I went home for the Spring Festival in 0/3, somehow, all the disappointments on the university and myself suddenly broke out. I raised my voice eight times and threw it at my mother like a bomb: If it weren't for you, would I choose this lousy school and major? Mother didn't speak, so I turned and rushed to the door. Later, my aunt called me and said, Wei Wei, you know, after that time you went out, your mother kept crying.
? We are still like children who have not grown up.
Finally, I understand that those mature street children often report good news to their families, not only to avoid their mothers' worries, but also to avoid their mothers blaming themselves for all their children's grievances. Mr. Shi Tiesheng said that children's pain always doubles with their mothers.