Who has a canoe short story "March Cry"
Love is kindness and gift, love is tolerance and forgiveness of all mistakes.
That night in March, the sky was overcast. Lin Yan wandered alone in the street, looking up. When he saw the advertisement in the shop, he thought-we can live by snuggling up. This is his favorite lyric of Leslie Cheung. It disappears, but a song can last forever.
After a little hesitation, he pushed the door and went in.
During the rainy season, the business in the store is deserted and the tables and chairs are empty. Only a girl in dark brown is hanging her head behind the counter.
She looked up when he came to the counter.
For an instant, his eyes looked at each other and he could not help but feel slightly dazed.
In front of this woman, her eyes are dark, her eyebrows are clear, her black hair is scattered behind her head, and her slightly raised lips look peaceful and quiet.
He ordered a glass of blue mountain, then went to the window and sat down. Outside the window, it is raining.
After a while, she smiled and gave him the brewed coffee. When she turned around, Lin Yan suddenly stopped her. Can we talk?
Her name is Jing Zhe.
He was a little surprised. This is a solar term. The bugs are awake. Their name is Jingzhi, which obviously means humble.
Why do you call it that? He felt a little out of line. But she still smiled happily.
Because I was born on a shocking day. What about you?
Me? Lin Yan couldn't help making fun of her. My name is Mangzhong, which is also a solar term.
She went on laughing, naive, and he couldn't help laughing with her.
Then, Lin Yan stopped laughing and corrected himself very gently. My name is Lin Yan, and he said, remember me.
She nodded obediently, well, be sure to remember.
I sat on it word by word, but I didn't feel embarrassed at all. Lin Yan is an inarticulate person, but she is surprised to find that she is a dazzling woman. Even if she just listens, she is satisfied.
Lin Yan just looked at her, the coffee at hand was cold, but his heart was full of warmth.
When they came to say goodbye to each other, Lin Yan left her QQ number, and she stood by the door and smiled and waved to him.
Such bright eyes go straight into people's hearts.
< 2 >
When they returned to the apartment they shared with Sun, Sun and Xiaoman had already prepared dinner.
After Sun and Xiaoman met at the freshman dance, they soon disappeared for a day. Three years later, they decided that each other was the only one in this life and got married as soon as they graduated.
Xiaoman sat down with a bowl and chopsticks and smiled. Lin Yan and Yu Ting called you and left messages asking you to contact her.
Yu Ting, a girl three years younger than him, is a family friend of his hometown, C City. Some things just let nature take its course, but in his mind, Yu Ting has always been a strange girl and has never changed for many years. Before he left for a city, Yu Ting sent him to the station with eager eyes.
You must wait for me, Yu Ting said.
After Lin Yan came to City A, he called him every week and always asked, "How are you, Yu Ting?" ?
Yu Ting also said with a smile, as long as you remember me, you will be fine.
It was silly, but Lin Yan remembered that she still felt warm in her heart. Maybe she really likes it.
If Yu Ting is a senior three, maybe we can meet in City A in half a year, but Lin Yan also feels very deep and likes it very much. After all, it is not love.
Lin Yan and Jing Zhe are chatting online. Her ID is her name. Jing Zhe.
Occasionally, he said that when we first met that day, her eyes made him temporarily absent.
Shocked, he said, do you know how beautiful you are?
Every heartfelt word is nothing more than an excessive meaning. But when I was shocked, I suddenly became serious.
Beauty can't be eaten as food. If people just want to eat and cover their bodies, how can they care whether the food is delicious or not?
It turned out that I was shocked because I couldn't afford the expensive tuition, so I came out early to experience the bitterness of life.
It turns out that the meager salary of coffee shop is the whole source of her survival in this city.
Lin Yan suddenly speechless.
I was shocked and a little uneasy to see that he didn't respond for a long time.
She said, am I rude? Maybe I shouldn't mention some trivial things that have nothing to do with you.
Lin Yan felt a little bitter in his heart. For a long time, he typed eleven numbers on the keyboard.
He said, Jing Zhi, this is my mobile phone number. If you need me, you can call me at any time and anywhere.
A few days later, Lin Yan received a phone call from Jingzhe, with a slightly tired voice.
I will never go to a coffee shop again, Jingzhi said. I'll start going to the bar tonight. If you are free, you can come and play. The flowers are in bloom, so it's easy to find.
Lin Yan was a little surprised. Why did she go to see the flowers? It's very messy there. Is the work in the coffee shop unsatisfactory?
Ok, I am surprised to answer, I am also very happy at leisure, but there is too little money. Although the flowers are scattered, the basic salary plus commission is in line with my requirements.
Lin Yan on the other end of the phone simply said that if I don't want to do anything, I don't have to do it. That's not the life I can choose now.
One morning a week later, he, Sun and Xiaoman came to the flower shop and sat in a corner.
Under the bright colored lights, Jingzhi wore a sapphire backless skirt and shuttled back and forth in the crowd. Occasionally, she looks tired with a hand full of bottles. She wears makeup, bright lip gloss, and exaggerated earrings on her small earlobe, which shows a charming charm.
When I looked up and saw Lin Yan, my lonely cheeks finally glowed.
There you are. She stood in front of him awkwardly.
And he watched her skillfully open the wine bill, and finally could not help but frown and ask her, do you like it here?
She is stupid, so naturally she doesn't like it.
But after staying for a long time, she tried to smile at him, but she was not used to the sunshine during the day.
I didn't get off work until two in the morning. When I got dressed and came out, I was surrounded by a beautiful girl
Her name is Mu Mu. She smiled and said, she is my colleague.
The air in late spring was still cold, so the five of them casually found a nightclub to eat something and then said goodbye to each other.
Before leaving, Lin Yan took off his coat and put it on Jingzhi's shoulder.
Lin Yan, Jing Zhe said that no one has done this to me for a long time, and I will remember all your good things.
After getting to know each other, Lin Yan often went to the flowers to wait for Scared and Mu Mu to get off work, and then sent them home.
Even, no matter how late at night, Lin Yan never turned off his cell phone, for fear of accidentally delaying this shocking call.
On the evening of April Fool's Day, Jing Zhi called him.
Lin Yan, I have a holiday tonight, so I can get off work early. Can you take me to the movies?
Her tone was naive and beautiful, and her clever voice suddenly warmed his ears.
That night, Lin Yan went to the flower shop in advance to wait for her. She is obviously in a good mood. She shuttled back and forth, smiling, flying in the sky, occasionally turning around and sticking out her tongue at him playfully.
Unexpectedly, when she got off work, a drunk suddenly blocked her way, grabbed her naked waist, knocked Zheng unconscious, and then tried to push her away, but there were unappreciative onlookers cheering loudly, making the drunk more and more presumptuous. Lin Yan immediately got up and ran over, but before he got close, a bloody liquid spilled over.
The white light in the center of the hall suddenly lit up, and the crowd roared down, eyes condensed. The stunned white chest is crimson, and there is a sharp crack on the broken bottle with half a hand inside. Her black eyes sparkled, which he had never seen before.
Everyone underestimated her, who would have thought that such power was hidden in that petite body.
Lin Yan stood still, but his heart choked. After a while, people began to stir up again and the scene gradually became chaotic. Shocked, he walked through the crowd step by step, holding Lin Yan's stiff palm.
Let's go, she raised her still clear eyes and stared at him, easily squeezing all the noise behind her.
They walked out of the flowers hand in hand. When Lin Yan looked back at the fright, she saw the lightness in her lips. Heart, she inexplicably became happy, running around like a naughty child.
As they ran faster and faster, the wind roared in their ears, and each other's gasps stopped the noise all over the world, and everything was silent. Lin Yan suddenly found that all people and things can be left behind, just hope that this moment can hold the soft warmth in his hand.
So running all the way, after a long time, two people stopped, and Lin Yan suddenly burst out laughing, a pair of unscrupulous appearance.
After a moment, he slowly put away his smile and his expression gradually became certain.
First, I was surprised, and then I smiled. I know, today is April Fool's Day. Are you kidding?
Lin Yan didn't speak, just leaned over and took out his mobile phone from his bag.
Stunned and curious, I saw/kloc-0 on the screen at 2: 00 on April 2, 5.
"It's not April Fool's Day now," Lin Yan said quietly. "I, Jingzhi, am serious. I want to be with you." .
After that night, Jingzhe was fired from the bar, and Lin Yan found her in the cabin she shared with Mu Mu.
Let me take care of you, he said
Scared luggage is very few, and a few clothes are all.
Before I left, I took Mu Mu's hand and took good care of myself. If you need anything, call me.
Mu Mu pretended to smoke quietly, but Rio Tinto was full of worries. She leaned against the door frame to see what Ding Lin said, which was good for her.
One night, I got a call from Yu Ting.
Yu Ting's voice is still very clever. The college entrance examination is coming soon. I will come to a city after the exam. You are ready to be used by me.
He smiled and then told her about the exam seriously.
I know all this, Yu Ting said. As long as you think of me, I can take the exam.
He replied, my brother will miss you.
Yu Ting paused for a moment and asked doubtfully, "When did you become my brother?" ?
Jingzhe lived with him for a month, and he bought her a diary made of recycled paper in a boutique.
At that time, Jing Zhe had entered the insurance company under the introduction of Xiaoman. She is beautiful and eloquent, and her performance soon went up.
The four of them go to work in class during the day and watch TV and play games together at night, but they live a quiet and peaceful life in An Lan.
Xiaoman always said that it would be good to live like this for a lifetime.
Until mid-June, Yu Ting called.
I will arrive tomorrow, and you can meet me at the station, Yu Ting said proudly on the other end of the phone. I have estimated the score, and it is no problem to go to a medical university in a city.
In fact, everyone knows that some things can never be avoided. For example, he really didn't promise Yu Ting any love, but he never explicitly refused her. He always thought he liked her, even a little in love, and now he is shocked. He finally caught a glimpse of the truth hidden in the illusion.
In city A in June, the sun blinded people.
Standing next to Lin Yan on the platform, is your sister beautiful? What kind of person is it?
Lin Yan smiled. I'll know when I see you. She's very nice. You must like her.
When the train stopped at the station, Yu Ting came to them in a short skirt. Lin Yan took her backpack, pulled out the thorn, and said to her, my girlfriend, please call me sister-in-law.
But Yu Ting's smile faded away, and her face turned pale at once. Yu Ting's tears welled up.
Say, Gu, how can you be so cruel?
Yan Fei was speechless, but when I looked back, the surprise around me was silent.
Yu Ting Waugh kept crying in her room. Gu, how could you do this? You said you would wait for me, but you fell in love with someone else?
Lin Yan sat silently, but she didn't know how to comfort her. He tried to hug her, but she pushed her away. She stared at her red eyes and burst into tears.
You go away, Yu Ting raises a finger, I don't want to see you, you can't touch me with your hugging hand, I feel dirty!
She waved her arms hysterically and used harsh words.
Lin Yan finally gave up all his efforts and turned and walked out the door, but there was no shadow of panic outside.
His heart sank and he had a bad feeling. Xiaoman said with complicated eyes that he had gone to Mu Mu, and she wanted you to appease Yu Ting. Besides, I hope you can make a decision as soon as possible.
Lin Yan, Xiao Man said that love never has the best of both worlds, only both lose.
Until the third night, Yu Tingcai gradually calmed down, and Lin Yan and he hurried to the hut that eliminated the fear.
Knocking on the door, Mu Mu looked at him coldly, and finally asked indifferently, didn't you promise to treat her well when you took her away? So now, have you done it? Before he could answer, he saw the frightened figure and slowly walked out of the back room.
She looks haggard. She hasn't seen her for days. Her cheeks are slightly sunken. No tears, no unnecessary questions, but her voice is infinitely weak.
Lin Yan, she asked him, do you have a choice?
He didn't speak, but stepped forward and held her in his arms.
Fear trembled into a thin leaf in his arms. Should I give you up? Or, you don't belong to me, you just walked with me for a while, but Yan Fei, how can I forget you?
I forbid you to forget me. He suddenly became anxious and in a daze. Do you remember the promise you made? You will remember all my kindness to you.
Say that finish, he gently let go of her and took out a mobile phone from his pocket, NOKIA3 100.
I was going to send you on Tanabata, but now I can't wait. I have chosen the number, you can take it with you every day, so that I can find you at any time, don't disappear silently, you know, I will worry.
He reached out and wiped the tears from her face.
Then, a velvet box was handed to her.
This was originally a gift for you on Tanabata, but I think it's better to tell you my thoughts now.
There is a ring in the box, which matches his eyes.
Marry me, I'm shocked.
In early September, Yu Ting moved into the school dormitory. She always looks on coldly when she gets along with Jingzhe. She said contemptuously, what are you arguing with me for? You have nothing. Lin said he would get lost sooner or later. At first, Jing Zhe didn't quarrel with her, and it was more and more harsh on her. She just exhaled a cigarette gently and smiled. Yes, I have nothing, but Lin said.
At the beginning of the new semester, Sun and Xiaoman are both senior students, and soon they will go to social practice and go to a distant and unfamiliar bustling city.
The night before he left, Lin Yan was startled and asked, Come and play with us.
She smiled and refused. You have your business and I have mine. I'm running a big client recently. If I take it off, I will have a good rest.
Their fingers are locked, he whispered. Everything I do is to make you happy in the future.
His words were so touching that she kissed his lips in the dark, wet and warm.
This is the first time I like someone so much. I love it so much that I'm at a loss. I like it enough to be willing to gamble and lose.
I was shocked to think that I couldn't let him go and loved him so much at all costs. Even if one day, he will abandon her, fall in love with another woman, and hunt for the tenderness of others, she will not blame him or resent him. She will still be grateful to him and walk alone in this lonely world with the happiness he left behind.
Love is kindness and gift, love is tolerance and forgiveness of all mistakes.
On the pillow, Lin Yan is still talking about it. On that day, I saw the roadside in the suburbs, green fields and dense Woods, ponds and muddy paths in the country, poultry and wild dogs on the roadside. At that time, I thought, if there is a place where I can stay with the fright without any interruption, then I would like to knit with men and women without food.
He didn't know that she suddenly shed tears in the silent darkness.
She called him Gu.
He turned around. What?
Her hands form a circle and she clearly says in his ear, Gu, I love you.
This is a word he has never heard before. In a trance, it seemed like a hundred years, and it took him a long time to finally wake up.
We're leaving tomorrow. He kissed her on the forehead, so I'll call you before I come back, okay?
It was one afternoon a month later, Yu Ting was awakened by her mobile phone from her nap, and Lin Yan's figure rang in her ear when she was sleepy.
Do me a favor, Yu Ting, said Lin Yan. Yesterday, I called Jingzhi and told her that we would arrive tonight and asked her to pick us up. However, something happened and we had to put it off for one day. Now Jingzhi's cell phone is disconnected. Would you please tell her for me?
Yu Ting deliberately refused, no matter what I think, I won't go.
Lin Yan became anxious. Hao, I beg you, okay?
Yu Ting had never heard of Lin Yan's sincere request, and she was annoyed at heart, but in the blink of an eye, Yu Ting answered directly.
Yu Ting clenched her cell phone hard. Well, she tried to say quietly, I'll help you this time.
Lin Yan at the other end of the phone immediately became happy. Before hanging up, she thanked him repeatedly and told him the time and place.
Make no mistake, Lin Yan said.
Well, I see, don't worry, Yu Ting hangs up heavily.
When I came back from work, I saw Yu Ting waiting for a long time.
Static cheese asked her, do you have something to find Lin Yan? .
Yu Ting waved, no, I'm looking for you. Lin Yan called me and told you that he wouldn't arrive until tomorrow, and your mobile phone couldn't get through.
Surprised and laughing, the phone is dead. It's really troublesome for you.
What does it matter? Yu Ting also smiled. By the way, Lin Yan asked me to tell you that at 9: 40 tomorrow evening, don't be late at the East Station.
To Lin Yan's surprise, when they returned to City A and walked out of the station, they only saw Yu Ting's long-awaited figure.
What about shock? Lin Yan asked her.
I don't know. Yu Ting also puzzled. I told her yesterday, but I didn't see her at the station today
That night, Lin Yan waited until three o'clock in the morning and didn't see Jingzhi come back. I called her, but her phone was turned off.
It was not until the next afternoon that he woke up from a persistent nightmare, only to find that there was a note beside the pillow that stung him.
Lin Yan, I'm going to work. I'm really sorry about last night. The company works overtime, so I can't pick you up.
At six o'clock in the afternoon, Jingzhi came back on time, still with a faint smile.
But a few days later, Lin Yan suddenly felt as if he were a completely different person.
Even if she keeps smiling, he can only see a happy mirage. At night, she began to lose sleep all night. Occasionally, when he suddenly woke up, he saw her black eyes and stared at himself motionless.
A cold sweat broke out on my back, and my heart tightened out of thin air.
I also asked why, but I was shocked and refused to answer. Only a pair of eyes as deep as the sea, Lin Yan know shock of stubbornness. After asking several times, she decided to give up until Yu Ting's birthday two months later.
During the dinner, I remained silent, but in the end, I suddenly got up and rushed into the bathroom to vomit. The little man quickly pulled Yu Ting together and hurried to catch up, only to see that she was unusually pale and her hands were clutching her chest, looking particularly haggard.
Shocked, Xiaoman opened his glasses. You're not. Are you pregnant?
I was shocked, but I saw Xiaoman take out a pack of pregnancy test sticks from his bag. This was left by my classmate yesterday. Please test it quickly. If so, you should discuss with Yan Fei what to do.
A few minutes later, Xiao Man was stunned by the results on the test paper, but both Jing Zhe and Yu Ting were red-eyed.
Yu Ting's tears fell down and she sighed. You finally won and turned away.
After returning to dinner together, Xiaoman calmed down for a while, looked at Lin Yan with a frown, and then accompanied Jingzhi to the hospital.
What happened to her? Lin Yan stood up nervously.
She might, uh, have your baby.
In this sudden scene, Lin Yanqing's face suddenly twitched horribly, and the veins stood out on the back of his fist. He stood up like a madman and turned away, but she left him without saying a word, her eyes full of despair.
I don't remember how long it was. When they stopped, next to them was the coffee shop where they first met.
Lin Yan's voice sounds like colic spreading. Whose evil seed is hidden in your stomach? !
But Jing Zhi bit her lip and opened her eyes, but she couldn't say a word.
Who would have expected that Yu Yan and the fright of staying in the same room every night are as clean and beautiful as children except kissing.
No wonder she can't sleep at night because he has returned to a city. No wonder no matter how he asked, she refused to answer.
It all seemed to come to an abrupt end.
Lin Yan's tears rolled down.
When she was shocked, all the light in her eyes burned to ashes in an instant.
There was no recovery or anger. She just kept looking at him until she looked dry and heartbroken.
He finally burst out laughing, laughing so sadly, and then let go and died.
Surprised, I will never see you again in the next century.
Four years later, and attended the wedding of Sun and Xiaoman.
When the ball thrown by Xiaoman fell into his arms, Sun He made a joke and soon found a good day to get married. People have been waiting for you for twenty years.
Lin Yan smiled, yes, as soon as possible. Looking up, I only saw Yu Ting's gentle smiling face.
For four years, he covered his scar and didn't let anyone peek. The sting of betrayal is a dagger inserted into his heart. However, Yu Ting has enough patience to wait until the clouds open and the moon shines. She told him firmly that I could wait. I don't mind that you settle for second best, and I don't mind that you love others. No matter how long, I can wait.
She really didn't put any pressure on him. She even gave up her major to help him set up a company and run a business. Lin Yan's cash flow is not good. She goes to her clients day and night to collect debts.
At present, his company is on the right track bit by bit, and all his success is inseparable from her efforts.
Just like before, she worked hard all night before entering a city. Only he will always be the driving force for her unremitting efforts.
Six months later, Lin Yan's mother put a jade bracelet on Yu Ting's wrist.
Everything is a foregone conclusion and imperative.
In autumn and October, they held a wedding.
This huge feast, as he wanted to shock many years ago, suddenly saw a familiar face in the crowd.
Mu Mu, I haven't seen him for a long time, and suddenly it feels like a wave.
He walked over in some surprise, briefly, for many years, okay?
But Mu Mu looked away indifferently. It's good. My husband works in your company. Thank you for your trouble.
He nodded and hesitated for a long time, but he couldn't help talking. He was shocked. Is she okay?
Mu Mu finally looked back at him, but smiled in dismay. You really remember her. You haven't looked for her in four years. I thought you'd forget who she was.
The next second, Mu Mu hid his face and wept bitterly. She has been dead for four years. The night after you turned around, she was as drunk as a fiddler in the bar, but she still called your name for you to go home, but at a crossroads with heavy traffic, she was caught under the car by an oncoming truck. ......
The truth of the original facts is often not revealed until many years later.
When Mu Mu shook his arm in tears, Lin Yan said that it was all thanks to your good wife. The night you came back from your internship, she tricked Jingzhi into going to the East Station and picking you up at the West Station. Jingzhi stood alone at the station until the early morning. When all the lights went out one by one, she met the bastard who was smashed in the bar. He raped her, and the child in her belly was that bastard, you know? Lin Yan, you always say that you love her, so what does it matter even if her child is not yours? What is unacceptable and why? ! Why did you leave her?
At that moment, his chest collapsed and cracked. ......
Lin Yan narrowed his eyes, and Yu Ting sat in the smoke and wept quietly.
Yu Ting, Lin Yan said, I don't blame you, because you are also careless. I can't forgive you, I can only forgive myself. Why didn't I grab her hand at first and ask carefully? Why is it so easy to assume that she turned her back on herself? Even if the left wing dies alone in this life, I deserve it.
Yu Ting buried her face in the palm of her hand and cried. Her crying gradually turned into powder in the thin air.
Yu Ting said, Lin Yan said, if life can be repeated, then I am willing to give up and retreat, and use one person's loneliness to make two people happy, but it is too late, nothing is too late. .......
A broken life can no longer be pieced together.
Half a year later, Lin Yan sold his painstaking management company and opened a small bar called "March Scare".
The door of the bar was sprayed with blue paint, and there was a faint word on it: we can only survive by snuggling up.
The dead are gone, only memories will last forever.
Lin Yan remembers that when he opened the door of the coffee shop, he saw Jingzhi standing behind the counter with a smile.
Black eyes, soft long hair and slightly raised lips look peaceful and quiet.