I think you have also persisted in your dreams.
In August 2010, as a freshman, I got on the shuttle bus leading to my upcoming university life. Unlike all the freshmen, I had no expectations and even fewer expectations. I felt the excitement that a new student should have. Because this year, something happened that I will never forget. Suddenly a freshman next to me asked me, "Hello, is this the school bus to South China University?" I looked up at him and said yes.
He sat down next to me politely. Hello, classmate, my name is Yao Chunlei, from the Department of Architecture.
Hello, Lu Yuhao.
So Lao Yao became the first good friend I made since I entered school. After entering the first class of military training and being a roommate, we naturally became old friends and talked about everything. I remember one winter, the winter in Xi'an was still very cold. After breakfast in the morning, I went to Keyuan to take a computer class. Due to the winter wake-up syndrome, I naturally got up a few minutes later than usual, and hurried to the cafeteria to get a meal. There were rice noodles, but there was a long queue. After dinner, it was getting closer and closer to class time. In terms of the geographical distribution of the school, the canteen is quite far away from Keyuan. I was anxious and urged Lao Yao and Qizai to hurry up. After devouring it for a few minutes, he quickly rushed to Keyuan. As soon as he squeezed into the elevator, a group of girls followed him. As singles, we naturally turned our attention curiously to the direction in which they came. We almost finished that computer course in the middle of a group of discussions, and the topic was naturally, which major girls were taking classes in Keyuan building. The curiosity of freshmen always comes so unreasonably. From then on, Qizai became the first one among us to get up every time we took computer class. Naturally, he was also the earliest to arrive at Keyuan. However, I later learned that every time he She arrived early and was waiting downstairs for someone to pass by. Later, this girl became Qizai's first love.
Qizai asked me for advice: "How can I get to know girls from other majors?" At that time, I was completely blank about relationship matters. Go back and read the book, maybe there is some solution in the book." So I found all the romance books I could find, including the complete works of Egger, Xinyiwu, and the complete works of Zhang Xiaoxian. Start reading and rereading to find answers. As a clever person, I learned a truth from these books: the encounter between the male and female protagonists must be accompanied by a fall.
For example, when the heroine is picking up a book in the library, she will definitely fall in front of the hero. For example, when the heroine rushes to class, she will definitely bump into the hero. The next day, I told Qizai this truth, and Qizai believed it deeply. In the next few days, we began to carefully observe the movements of the flowers in the class next door. More than ten days passed, and finally one day after computer class, we waited for the class beauty who went to the classroom with her textbooks. After lurking for so long, I finally waited for a good opportunity. I must push Qizai out with my own hands. This time we saw the opportunity and gave Qizai a hard push when the class beauty passed by. Qizai fell out. We had simulated the entire script a day before. The script should be: Qizai knocked down the class beauty, Qizai turned around and scolded me, Qizai squatted down to pick up the textbook for the class beauty, Qizai accidentally touched the class beauty's hand, left each other's contact information before leaving, Qizai and classmate Flowers fall in love.
I couldn’t help but burst into laughter with secret joy, perfect! But who would have thought that the class beauty would nimbly duck away, leaving Qizai lying on the ground. At that moment, I was thinking that this class beauty must be very good at sports. I was still stunned in place, completely forgetting about Qizai who was still lying on the ground. ... Qizai's eyes widened with anger. I thought he might want to hit me. I ran away. I ran away desperately, not caring who the person in front of me was, but I bumped into the class beauty who was walking in front. I collected myself. Qizai rushed to the class beauty, Qizai turned around and scolded me, Qizai squatted down to pick up the fallen textbook for the class beauty, and then Qizai accidentally touched the hand of the class beauty. I stood aside and watched the scene unfold. I'm such a genius. I nodded vigorously with this belief. Still intoxicated with himself, the class girl stood up and cursed angrily: "Get out of here, you're crazy!" Qizai was very surprised, and then became very angry. I was very surprised and then very worried.
I was convinced from the look in Qizai’s eyes: He might not want to hit me. He really wanted to hit me. I ran away. Because of this initial mistake, the emotional planning project in the dormitory was transferred to others.
About the middle of the second year, Qizai showed up with the girl we had implemented a package plan to meet. The difference this time was that she was an official boyfriend and girlfriend. That day People from their dormitory and our dormitory gathered together. I remember it was the first and most unscrupulous chat in college in my memory. It was very much like us and you that year. But later, on the eve of graduation, Qizai and the others finally parted ways and broke up. Many people said that graduation means breaking up. I don’t deny it, because until graduation, I, who always liked to be alone with books, finally ended up Not starting my relationship career in college has since become a regret.
Cui said: "You said we can still be like this in the future, with everyone laughing together, teasing each other, and crying freely." That year we graduated, and the TV series "The Year in a Hurry" was on the air. Before leaving school, watching "The Year in a Hurry" became a task assigned by us. After watching "The Year in a Hurry", our youth was over. I am forever fixed in that moment, and for those of us who are used to matching seats, "That Year in a Hurry" was naturally unavoidable. As a literary and artistic person, I was given the code name Qiao Ran. The characteristics of Lao Liu fit in with Chen Xun's, and his girlfriend at the time was naturally and Fang Fang. Of course, they are married, and now they are Lao Liu's wife. She is quite happy. I sincerely wish them all the best. Just a few days ago, they also welcomed a new life, and they have truly become a happy family of three. The unscrupulous boy Zhao Ye naturally fell in love with Qizai. For some reason, we always felt that he was unreliable, so after thinking about it, we still felt that Zhao Ye was more suitable for him. I wonder if he would want to hit me if he saw it. That year, we had a WeChat group. The name of the group was "Ten Years Appointment, Do You Remember?" Although we rarely chat in the group now, it has become a place where we share our stories from time to time. In this pure land, we can still speak freely and talk about anything. But none of us, who had just graduated a few years ago, thought that this year, there would suddenly be one less person in our team, and the time would always be fixed on October 24, 2019. When all of us heard the news, we thought it was just a prank, but the reality really makes you understand that you never know which one will happen first, tomorrow or the accident. This decade has not yet arrived. Will I still remember to keep the appointment in the next decade? How many decades do we have in our lives? If you are interested, tell me a story about you and your best friend.
She said: "Well, I just want to tell you that I used to think that I couldn't go anywhere, but that's not true. I can come to the beach alone and go to other cities alone. We have all been drowning in love, but we would rather wait for the boat to come back. When we were young, we all laughed at how stupid people are when they carve out a boat to ask for a sword, but what is the difference between me and him? Yuhao, I understand? "What I lack in my life is not water, but something else."
This was during my military training in college. I met Li Linlin from the Department of Medical Nursing of Peihua University through WeChat in my spare time, because she also likes words. Because of this, we have become good friends who talk about everything. At this point, many friends may ask why we have not become boyfriend and girlfriend, because in reality, my friends have also teased me. Because she already had a boyfriend for a year before me, and they were from the same place. Later, every time Linlin was unhappy or had a fight with her boyfriend, she would call me and tell me that I would only hire someone. , then one time, she and her boyfriend made a special trip to the school to see me, bringing specialties from their hometown. Her boyfriend and I talked a lot that day. When seeing them off, they unanimously asked me to be their big brother. Later, in the second year after graduation, I returned to my hometown and got married. Now my life is still very happy. Sometimes, watching the happiness of my friends around me is actually a feeling. The good thing is that I am still with books. . . . .
One summer, I made an appointment with some friends to go to Chengdu. When I climbed to the top of Huanglong Park, my friend asked me, what do you think summer tastes like? I thought about it and said, I think There should be many kinds of flavors: when you miss a person, a scene, or a period of time, this summer is the flavor of missing. It's like, one summer, the person you like gave you a bottle of Coke, so your summer was Coke-flavored; once, when you were waiting, you ordered a cup of milk tea on the street, so you would feel that waiting was milk tea-flavored. Although the memory will be blurred, the familiar smell will not. Just like every summer after the rain, you can always smell the earthy smell in the air.
This year, the smell of my summer was gray. Seeing that I was deep in thought, Old Liu quickly pulled me back and said seriously: "Let's look for the taste and smell of the past. When we walk through those streets and scenery again, it's just that For the obsession in my heart. "After the obsession is done, the things you can't figure out will be over. It's no big deal. Always believe that good things are about to happen. Lao Liu is a die-hard rice fan, so he can always accept this slogan of Xiaomi. Have it at your fingertips. We looked at each other and laughed.
Time is passing, let’s go again, it’s so good, so good, everything around is so quiet, so quiet. Until a certain age, you can survive by being clever, clever, and lucky. However, after a certain age, what can really take you far is self-discipline, positivity and diligence.
If the price of freedom is loneliness, then accept it. Because there are still two things you can do: become better, and wait for that person to appear.
Zhou Zhou closed the book and said, "Aquarius is an air sign! Scorpio, Pisces, and Cancer are water signs!" I suddenly became interested and asked, "What about Capricorn?" Zhou Zhou said: "Capricorn, an earth sign! Commonly known as a rustic." I lifted the table and said, "What kind of rustic is this? Do you think I'm a rustic?!" Miaomiao next to me glanced at me and said, "Earthy!" Huh? Um? ! What a bastard! Yuhao is positioned as a fashionable boy, right? From then on, I became determined not to let her read my horoscope again. Zhou Zhou is my fellow countryman, a very sunny girl. And this time, it was the last time we teased each other in the library before leaving school. My friends were all used to making fun of me, because I would never get angry, let alone get angry with them, because I thought I could meet them. It is still rare to find a few friends who are truly old friends. I just don’t know why she suddenly started studying astrology recently, and then pestered each of us to read the zodiac signs. Later we found out that she fell in love with an Aquarius boy. I didn't understand this feeling until many years later. When you like someone, you always want to know everything about him and integrate into his life. Just like how much I loved a girl once and for all, the weather was always just right on the way to find her, and the wind blowing in winter never felt cold. And I was carrying the wind as I walked, with the melody of a love song behind me. I was thinking about what I would say when we met later, and I was afraid that I would not perform well. Even the trees on the street seem cuter than usual. I can still smell the smell of spring when I close my eyes.
In the third year after graduation, Zhou Zhou was proposed to by his boyfriend. Of course, all this was indispensable for our planning. Zhaohui called us half a month ago to inform us of his idea, and we started planning. Implementation, finally the day before Zhou Zhou's birthday, everything was ready. The next day, Zhaohui asked Zhouzhou to go to a restaurant for dinner. However, when he went there, Zhouzhou found that Zhaohui didn't bring a birthday gift and ordered a few random dishes. After eating for a while, a call came in. Zhaohui walked out of the restaurant, leaving Zhouzhou alone. I couldn't laugh or cry in the restaurant, I was at a loss. Suddenly Wang Wei and I appeared from behind. She was surprised and happy, and asked us: "Why are you here?" I smiled and said: "I have a birthday surprise for you." She pouted and said: "Zhaohui doesn't know either. Where are you going?" Wang Wei and I looked at each other, and at the same time made a "please" gesture to Zhou Zhou, telling her to go outside and take a look. She looked at us doubtfully and walked out doubtfully. Halfway through, twelve corgis suddenly appeared, yes, twelve. In the past few days, Zhaohui had harassed almost all his friends around him. When Zhou Zhou saw this, he burst into tears. Not only is the scene of twelve corgis standing in a row so impactful, but also because each corgi has a balloon tied to it. The balloon said: "I love you, can you marry me?" With Zhou Zhou and Zhao Hui looking at each other speechless, the proposal ceremony came to a successful conclusion. This time, our planning was successful!
Of course, life is far more than just happy moments. We have seen too many separations and silent farewells, as well as some darkness and hysterical betrayals. How fragile are the relationships between people? Sometimes, if a sentence is not spoken clearly, you may become a stranger in a few days. But there are always some people in life who, with their own persistence, tell us that there is still unchanging beauty in this world. So every time I see the happiest moments of my best friends, I can't help but cry. It's so rare. Behind every happiness, there is something that only they know. It's not easy to meet each other across thousands of mountains and rivers. We walked around, some people were still waiting, and some people had already met each other.
To meet the right person, you need the right time, right place, and right people. Although this is a strategy only used in battles, it is also applicable to the right person. I don't know if I have such good luck. But I am very happy that the people around me have such good luck. I hope you can still meet people and things that make you firm, and your sincerity will not be let down, and the people you trust are all worth it.
In the past few years, I have traveled to different cities and been exposed to different industries. I am always rushing between work and the route home. Chasing the sunrise in different cities, I like one person very much, and I was also liked by another person, but I was not with anyone. Later I did a lot of inexplicable things. Once I went to Beijing. It was snowing heavily in the cold winter of December. It was obviously very cold and I just didn’t want to go back. I walked around in the streets. From Wangfujing to the Old Summer Palace ruins. Now that I think about that night, it was really cold. I would also go crazy watching movies alone, always buying the corner seats, and I didn’t even know why. The most memorable time was when I went to the cinema to watch "Doraemon, Come Along with Me" twice. As for why it was twice, I don't know. I just remember that I always left the movie crying every time.
Later I realized that there are too many people waiting for the sunrise in this world. Waiting for the dawn, waiting for relief, waiting for comfort, waiting for a sunny day, almost everyone in this world is waiting. And the top of Huashan Mountain is the most beautiful sunrise I have ever seen. At that moment, I suddenly understood that I didn’t need to share it with anyone. It’s not that I don’t want to share it, but it turns out that a sunrise like this doesn’t need to be shared, it’s worth watching. Just like when I watched a concert, I always felt that I wanted to share it with someone. Then I went to watch it myself and found another kind of emotion. Some things can be done alone, but we lack the courage to do it alone.
There is nothing terrible about waiting for someone or something that you can’t tell when it will come. At least you can do what you like while waiting. But while waiting, you must make yourself better. If you know that what you are waiting for will never come, I believe that as time passes, you will learn to give up. As for the thoughts that occasionally pop up in my mind, just miss them. I miss the past days, I miss the people I used to have, I miss the sunrises I used to have, I miss the eaves that used to hide from the rain. You and I both know that after thinking about something, you will pull yourself back to real life. Then move forward, being carried forward by the sea of people every day. These words were what I said to myself at that time.
I remember that cats often appeared in Haruki Murakami’s works. I had never had one at that time and I didn’t know its significance. Now I know that lonely people are best suited to get along with cats. He is neither clingy nor willful. He has a tacit understanding with you and knows the most appropriate distance.
Raise a cute and cute Garfield, or a lazy Garfield. When the weather is nice, let’s bask in the sun together; when you feel sleepy, let’s lie on the sofa together; if you are sad , just hold him next to you and make you happy. A few years later, I began to pay attention to the trivial details of life. I added furniture, filled the refrigerator, went to the flower market to purchase some green plants, and invited friends to my home on weekends to chat about the world together. Green plants are placed in every room, living room, and corner of the furniture. The cat is lying on the cat climbing frame nearby. The house suddenly feels more alive.
If I could go back to the past now, I would still make the choices I should make and develop the habits I should develop. So have I really not changed over the years? No, it has changed more or less. I learned to accept it. I accept my stupidity and helplessness in life at times, accept those unreasonable parting ways, accept the sudden feeling of powerlessness, accept the loss of powerlessness, accept the separation of life and death, and accept the impermanence of the world. Because only by accepting these can you know what is important. I learned to digest myself. The things I like no longer have to be recognized by others, and I no longer force others to be obsessed with a certain thing or someone. I no longer have to tell anyone about sad things. My emotions digest themselves. Even if it is difficult to adjust, I can No more resistance. When it gets dark, it gets dark again, and when it rains, it rains, and I don’t resist any emotions that come my way. Take things as they come, because you have the confidence to stand firm on your own. Life in Xi'an now. I have some very good friends. We are all working hard to live and do our best to create a sense of belonging in this city. Someone once asked me, why am I unwilling to go home even though it is very hard? I thought about it for a long time and said: "Living in a strange city is all about greater freedom. Now that I think about it, this so-called freedom is just because I can't stand doing things I don't like."
Because I was unwilling and unable to compromise, I fought hard. ”
Everything has a price. When you choose a path and stick to it, you have to accept all the costs. You don’t date, you don’t escape, you don’t run away. From dark to dawn, you just focus on what you are doing. You don't know if what you are doing is absolutely right, but you want to face it alone. You don't know when the weather will be clear, but it will be clear. You don't need comfort or understanding. You can bear the weight of loneliness because you have a place you want to go. You can't hold on to it for three minutes, and you can't tolerate it because we are all like this. In the new year, I understand that even if you are no longer innocent, you must keep your childish side; even if you no longer shed tears, you must keep the things that moved you; even if you learn to exercise restraint when drinking, you must still get together with your friends. It's really fun to make noises together. I don't want to be what others like. I just want to be myself. This is how I live. I often live alone and can't sleep late at night. Sometimes I encounter problems in life. It's difficult, and it can take a long time. Fortunately, there are a few true friends who encourage each other, and life is not so difficult. There are two things that time cannot take away. One is the ability to get along with myself, and the other is people who are in sync with me. . We are independent and struggle on our own path. Looking at each other gives us a sense of security.
We keep walking and keep going. I think you have also traveled a long way. Those sad moments and twists and turns. Maybe you can't find anyone to talk to, so I hope that there is someone who has seen everything about you, knows your past, tolerates your willfulness, and says to you: There is still a long way to go, but you have me by your side. , I will accompany you for a long time. I hope someone can accompany you for many years. If not, I hope you can be your own sun.