I can’t tell you that I like you, for fear that I won’t even be friends.

Every day I receive a lot of various messages in the WeChat backend and Weibo private messages. No matter how long or short each paragraph is, it is a vivid story, sad or joyful. I remember a girl said in the comment area some time ago: "Ruixi, you know too many stories and secrets that we don't want to tell others. We will reveal those scars to you, and we will tell you all the pain." , and those are actually the weaknesses that we are afraid of being known by others. We tell you those stories, hoping that you will tell them to more people. Maybe that is a strange and special comfort. "

I dare not say that I am also a person with stories, but at least I can find myself in the experiences you have told me.

In fact, I am just like you, licking my wounds while being hurt, and growing into an adult while enduring.

I am a pessimistic optimist. I want to believe that in those distant days, the places we wanted to go were very close, the drinks we wanted to drink were all named, and someone would take you home after you were drunk. Have someone you can miss and have a phone number that will always be answered. I know that we will eventually live free and unrestrained. I send this blessing to myself and to you. What I want to talk about today is a story about his secret love. Maybe you can also find your own shadow.

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"I can't say I like you, because I'm afraid I won't even be friends." I don't know how many people hide this sentence in their hearts. The two were good friends, but one of them fell in love first. So he didn't know whether to tell you or not, so he could only love you as a friend. He is always very contradictory. He hopes that you will be happy and not hurt, but he also hopes that you can finally understand the hidden love, so that he can hold you in his arms openly and tell you, "We don't want to be friends anymore." , I like you and I want us to be together. "

Having you is my greatest happiness. From the first time I cried until I grew up this big, except for the five months before you were born, it seems that you were there in every period of time. Through joy, suffering, happiness and loss, you were never absent, you were always there.

I remember when I was young, I loved it when my parents got together, and the children would play hide-and-seek or play house at home. We would always hide behind the curtains, whispering and waiting to be discovered. It's embarrassing to say that you are more like a boy compared to me. When my toys are taken away, you help me get them back, but I always hide behind you and cry like a girl.

What I fear the most is what parents say, "Everyone goes home to find his own mother." Because it means the end of the party, the end of farewells and happy nights, and it means we have to Let go of each other's hands and go home to sleep. In fact, the impressions of childhood are blurred. Anyway, as long as we are together, we will be very happy. The ice cream is delicious, the color of the sky is beautiful, and even the smell of the air is sweet. Looking back now, my heart is full of sweetness.

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Later, we all grew up, and you became more and more feminine and beautiful. Every time I hear that you have a boyfriend, I actually feel a little bit uncomfortable in my heart, like a jealous little boy or a disappointed father. She is obviously my childhood sweetheart, but why is she getting close to another boy? It was me who helped you cover up and come out to play. It was I who spent your childhood and adolescence with you. It was I who watched you transform from a tomboy into a bright and free-spirited beautiful girl. I can't understand how you could fall in love with someone else.

However, I know that our relationship is ten thousand times stronger than those relationships that are destined to break up. We are like family members and friends, and we will have the most sincere trust in each other throughout our lives. Because we have never been together, we never have to worry about separation.

When you came to Shanghai from Suzhou, we were walking on the noisy Nanjing road holding an umbrella hand in hand, like a newlywed couple. The moment you held my arm, I felt suddenly confident in my heart, as if I had a pair of armor. I was no longer afraid of the crowds, and could face the cold skyscrapers. I felt like I was connected to this cold skyscraper. The city is as tall as it is. I don't care if the whole world passes by me and everything I lose is just a cloud. There is someone beside me who will never abandon me. When we stand together, I know I am incredibly powerful.

Zhang Jiajia said: People need coordinates to live, and you are one of my coordinates. I don’t know where you will drift to in the future, but the city you own will definitely become a place that appears repeatedly in my dreams. I will care about the weather there, study the traffic there, and search for delicious restaurants and restaurants there. Fun place. Because I know I am connected to that city. That's your land and it's my land.

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You are much braver than me. You always talk about the future in an understatement. You have dreams and a future to look forward to. I especially envy your calmness. With your calm look, I can feel the freedom in your heart and the wings you hide behind your back.

I am actually very afraid that you will wander to a place that I cannot reach in the future. I dare not go to a place that is too far away. I dare not imagine that I will not see you for several years, nor do I want to Accept you as my long-lost old friend. I want to maintain this relationship for a lifetime, so that I can proudly say that I have you in my life.

I really want to write you the best wishes in the world, but unfortunately I really can’t express my feelings clearly in words. So be it, when no one says love words to you, just tell me, and I will definitely say those three words to you without hesitation: I love you.