Zhang Zhongxing: My wife and I have been together for 68 years. I wanted to see my wife for the last time before I died, but I didn't know she had already passed away.
At the beginning, a ray of sunshine in the early morning spilled into this ancient tube-shaped building through the window. The "most striking" thing was the old cane chair that accompanied Zhang Zhongxing for most of his life.
The reason why it is "the most eye-catching" is not only the shining patina wrapped in years, but also the love and hate intertwined behind this chair.
When the dust settles, everything becomes a thing of the past. Time has passed, telling the story of the parting of the world of mortals.
1932, Zhang Zhongxing was still studying in Peking University.
An accidental moment, Zhang Zhongxing saw this cane chair in the street. At one glance, he fell in love. Although the bag was a little shy, Zhang Zhongxing took it home.
After all, Yang Mo has given birth to her first child. He also began to take care of his daily life at will, washing and cooking for him.
Although there is a little gap between them because of the arrival of the children, they still love each other deeply after all.
That was in 193 1, and Yang Mo was still a teenage girl. /kloc-at the age of 0/7, she looks very political. Fair skin, innocent smile and graceful figure make her look graceful no matter where she stands.
Youth gave her a heart full of enthusiasm for the future, but it also brought her emotional distress.
My father fell in love with another woman and never came back. My brother also broke up with my mother because he pursued the freedom of love. In this family, only she and her sister are still with their mother.
Life is getting tighter and tighter, and it is stretched everywhere.
So, my mother took the initiative to find a marriage for Yang Mo. She is going to marry her daughter to a rich young officer. If this marriage is successful, money will no longer be a problem.
Yang Mo can be a rich wife with peace of mind, and her sister's tuition and living expenses have been settled. As for whether the two of them have an emotional foundation, mom doesn't care. After all, that's how she got here.
However, it is different now, and the folk customs have long been civilized.
People who have read books no longer believe in "parents' orders and matchmakers' words". They all want to talk about a vigorous love in their bones. Yang Mo has studied and received a new education. Naturally, she also wants to break the shackles that bind her.
To this end, she fell out with her mother. Mother stopped paying her tuition and living expenses.
In order to find a job and settle down, Yang Mo had to go to Beidaihe to ask his brother for help. Only at this time, Yang was tortured by the present life and had no time to take care of him.
So, Yang Mo found his classmate Li Shaoqiang again, hoping he could do something for him. Speaking of it, this Shao-is also intentional.
He made connections everywhere and finally found a student studying at Peking University. When the student heard what happened to Yang Mo, he felt some sympathy.
He said that if he could, he would like to find a job as a primary school teacher for Yang Mo.
This is Zhang Zhongxing.
The two finally met.
Accompanied by friends, Yang Mo returned to Beijing from Beidaihe. Zhang Zhongxing specially ordered a few side dishes in Donglaishun as a banquet for Yang Mo.
He originally thought that the girl's mood at this time should be a little lost, even a little scared and uneasy. However, when Yang Mo sat opposite him, he realized that this was not the case.
Although life is a little tight, my studies have been interrupted, and now my mother is forced to get married. But her face is still filled with a smile, and there is an unspeakable enthusiasm. She is positive and optimistic.
Yang Mo made no secret in front of Zhang Zhongxing. You can look forward to your future without scruple, or you can talk about your past casually.
At that moment, Zhang Zhongxing was moved by this sunny girl, and even more impressed by her courage.
If he 17 had courage, he wouldn't marry a wife without emotional foundation; If the wife shares her enthusiasm and goes to school like her, it will be no stranger to get married for several years.
In fact, when Zhang Zhongxing was three or four years old, his parents arranged a marriage for him.
That's a peasant girl from her hometown, a few years older than President Zhong Zhang. That girl has never read a book and can't read. She knows nothing about the outside world except the so-called "three obedience and four virtues".
From 65438 to 0926, Zhang Zhongxing was still studying in Tongxian Normal School. That day, he received a letter from his mother asking him to go home and get married.
Zhang Zhongxing himself refused. He doesn't want to marry a girl who has never met and can't read, but he doesn't want to go against his mother's wishes. Although his heart was tangled, he forced himself to accept the marriage arranged by his mother.
On their wedding night, Zhang Zhongxing met his wife for the first time. She is plain and has small feet. Speaking a little nervous and illogical.
As for Zhang Zhongxing's poems, songs, literature and art, his wife knows nothing about it. Zhang Zhongxing is not good at doing those housework.
Two people always don't have the same language, so there is no fun in life.
It is better to study abroad than to stay at home with my wife. Therefore, Zhang Zhongxing seldom goes home on weekdays. He and his wife hardly have much in common except for the winter and summer vacations every year.
He asked for his knowledge, while she served the elderly at home. Whether working in the fields or dressing for dinner, she always works hard. She was destined to marry Zhang Zhongxing. She admitted it and didn't want to resist.
Yang Mo's appearance aroused a ripple in Zhang Zhongxing's heart. How many days and nights, he longed for such a woman to accompany him. You can talk to him, or you can talk to him about literature and art.
It's probably undeniable. Zhang Zhongxing fell in love with Yang Mo at the first meeting.
Love at first sight is not an exaggerated word, it is real.
As for Yang Mo's feelings for Zhang Zhongxing, let's start with another story.
After Zhang Zhongxing and Yang Mo met, they chatted very speculatively. In a trance, I feel that I have met you for a long time.
Seeing that Yang's situation is really difficult, Zhang Zhongxing promised to give Yang a job. He wrote a letter to his brother, who is the principal of a high school, recommending Yang Mo to be a teacher with him.
In those days when waiting for a reply, the communication between Yang Mo and Zhang Zhongxing increased.
One day, Yang Mo made an appointment with a friend to visit him in Zhang Zhongxing's apartment.
The door opened and Yang Mo saw a room full of books. That book is a small apartment, as if it is full of books, and books are everywhere.
Sitting in a room is like walking in the world of books. Yang Mo was shocked by Zhang Zhongxing in front of him. It turned out that his gentleness and erudition were poured out in front of him by these books.
She is eager to study, but because of various lives, she has to finish her studies.
At that moment, Yang Mo looked at Zhang Zhongxing with different eyes. From initial appreciation to admiration and love.
Zhang Zhongxing took a book off the shelf. Although there was no dust on it, Zhang Zhongxing tried to blow off the floating dust and wiped it with his sleeve. This just hands handed the book to Yang Mo.
However, for two people, this is not a simple book, but the true feelings of one person to another.
When Yang Mo also held the book, two fiery hearts were intertwined. Dragged into the abyss of love together, it is difficult to extricate themselves.
But soon, Zhang Zhongxing's brother's reply came. The letter said that the school really lacked teachers. I hope Yang Mo will go to school as soon as possible if she wants.
In Beijing in September, it was a little chilly in the morning and evening.
With the birds singing in the morning, Zhang Zhongxing sent Yang Mo to the station. After the whistle sounded, Yang Mo boarded the train with the crowd.
Although their eyes were full of sadness, they waved, which meant goodbye. As for when we can meet again, no one can give an answer.
The train started, and Zhang Zhongxing stood on the platform, watching the direction of the train passing by, and refused to leave for a long time. Yang Mo sat in the carriage, looked at Zhang Zhongxing through the window, and faded away until he was out of sight.
Zhang Zhongxing has been a little absent-minded since Yang Mo left. He picked up a pen and wrote letter after letter to Yang Mo, pouring out his true feelings.
Yang is a frank person. Her love for Zhang Zhongxing was also openly expressed. Although the two places are separated, their hearts are closer.
One day in that year 1 1 month, Yang Mo suddenly returned to Beijing.
Her mother has been lying in the hospital bed. A sallow face indicates that you are going to die. Yang Mo went back to her mother to take care of her seriously ill mother.
At the same time, she and Zhang Zhongxing were infatuated with each other for a while.
Soon, Yang Mo's mother died, and she conceived a child for Zhang Zhongxing.
Yang Mo is excited about the arrival of the child. She is eager to wait for the crystallization of this love with Zhang Zhongxing. She told the news to Zhang Zhongxing with great joy, but Zhang Zhongxing's face showed some unspeakable fear.
At this time, he was still studying, and all his financial resources came from his mother's support. Their lives are already a little tight, and the arrival of their children is bound to drag them into new difficulties.
Zhang Zhongxing is in trouble. At that moment, he didn't seem to know how to deal with the next life.
However, in the sensitive Yang Mo's view, she felt that Zhang Zhongxing was indifferent to herself and no longer loved her so much. The gap between two people was born like this.
Strong Yang Mo gave birth to a baby at her sister's wet nurse's house and gave it to others.
Originally, she had some hatred for Zhang Zhongxing, but after returning to Peiping, she found that Zhang Zhongxing's attitude eased, and she was always annoyed by what happened before. After all, two people fell in love and soon lived together again.
However, their personalities are completely different. Zhang Zhongxing just wants to be a literate person and learn his knowledge.
As for my wife, I hope I can have emotional communication with him and take good care of his life. However, such a request is beyond Yang Mo's power.
She is a passionate person, and he has a life he wants to pursue. Soon, Yang Mo and left-wing writers walked together.
Zhang Zhongxing is not interested in politics. He wants Yang Mo to be as far away from politics as he is, but Yang Mo is keen on it, and the contradiction between her and Zhang Zhongxing is getting deeper and deeper.
In fact, it can be seen from their attitude towards marriage that the two of them will not last long after all. Sooner or later, we will go our separate ways.
Yang Mo wrote a dear John letter to Zhang Zhongxing with pregnancy and left with another man.
The cane chair also welcomed the second hostess.
It's a peach blossom garden of 1935, with birds and flowers and spring.
In a small farmhouse, Zhang Zhongxing met the woman who was introduced to him.
The girl's name is Li Zhiluan, who is one month older than Zhang Zhongxing. She is also from Shizhuang, Hebeitun Township, Zhang Zhongxing.
However, Li Zhiluan is different from Zhang Zhongxing's first wife. She is the only daughter of a wealthy local family. She has been to school and read books.
Two people chatted for a long time under the peach blossom, and there seemed to be endless words. The atmosphere was great, and both of them showed their affection for each other.
When leaving, Zhang Zhongxing said to her, "You are older than me, and I will call you sister in the future." .
A sweet smile appeared on Li Zhiluan's face. She didn't speak, just nodded. But also seems to be very satisfied with Zhang Zhongxing this call to her.
At that time, Zhang Zhongxing was teaching in Tianjin. Li Zhihuan also went to see him specially.
Two people walk side by side in the campus of Tianjin, and the atmosphere of love is everywhere. Zhang Zhongxing took her to visit many good places in Tianjin, but the smile on Li Zhihuan's face became less and less.
When leaving, she also said to Zhang Zhongxing, "I don't like a metropolis like Tianjin very much".
At first, Zhang Zhongxing didn't understand the true meaning of this sentence. It was not until later that Zhang Zhongxing learned Li Zhilian's real intention through references.
Who doesn't like busy places? It's just that she thinks living in such a place is too expensive. She doesn't want Zhang Zhongxing to bear too much pressure in life. She is worried about him.
After learning the news, Zhang Zhongxing was completely moved. He has always longed for someone to share his life with him. If we met for the first time, Zhang Zhongxing had some affection for Li Zhilian. This time, however, he really felt that Li Zhihuan was the person he was looking for in his life.
Soon, Zhang Zhongxing went to Baoding and married Li Zhiluan with the blessing of relatives and friends.
This time, he really met the right person. Li zhiluan has culture and knowledge, but he doesn't have that many ideas. Everything she thinks and does revolves around her husband, Zhang Zhongxing.
Zhang Zhongxing was thirsty, so Li Zhilian silently added water to him. After a busy day, tired Zhang Zhongxing comes home, and Li Zhiluan will prepare his favorite meal for him.
Zhang Zhongxing finally has time to delve into his knowledge. As for life, he no longer needs to pay attention to it.
It was already a little cold in the early winter of that year. Zhang Zhongxing looks a little thin.
So, a colleague asked him, "Aren't you cold?"
Zhang Zhongxing smiled shyly. He rolled up his sleeves and said, "Look, I'm wearing a cotton-padded jacket." .
That is a dark plain cotton-padded coat, which Li Zhiluan exchanged with one of her wedding dresses.
In early autumn, when Zhang Zhongxing fell asleep. In the dim light, Li Zhiluan sewed this cotton-padded jacket stitch by stitch. Every stitch is full of Li Zhiluan's love and care for her husband.
Zhang Zhongxing always feels warm in this cotton-padded coat. Even in cold December, he wouldn't change for a thicker one. It was not until Li Zhihuan made him a new cotton-padded jacket that he reluctantly changed it.
Li Zhihuan really takes care of Zhang Zhongxing's diet and daily life like a younger brother.
Zhang Zhongxing once wrote an article about his life with Li Zhihuan.
"I don't know if I am full when I eat. My wife doesn't give me enough food, she must be full; I don't know whether the clothes are warm or cold, and my wife won't let me add clothes. It must be warm. "
Li Zhihuan never complained about Zhang Zhongxing. Even in the most difficult days, she silently shouldered all the burdens at home. Don't let Zhang Zhongxing worry about life and be distracted by trifles.
Zhang Zhongxing's memory and Li Zhiluan's life.
He said that their days are only spring and autumn. It is neither cold nor hot. Probably because they all played their roles, waiting silently and paying for each other.
In 2003, Li Zhihuan was admitted to the hospital before Zhang Zhongxing. Soon after, Zhang Zhongxing's health condition also appeared. Lying in a hospital bed, he always asks his daughter, "How is your mother? Do you feel better? "
One morning, lying in a hospital bed, Zhang Zhongxing suddenly woke up from a dream. His hands trembled suddenly, and he always felt that something bad had happened.
He said to his daughter, "when can you let your mother come to see me?" I miss her. " .
My daughter always says, "Soon, soon, you will see her when you are well".
Who knows that on that day, Li Zhihuan left him first. His wife of 68 years walked in front of him, probably paving the way for him.
In 2006, Zhang Zhongxing also celebrated his 97th birthday. On his deathbed, he still remembers his wife Li Zhiluan.
It was not until he went to bed that he knew that Li Zhihuan had left three years ago.