Help me see what this constellation means.

It shows that when I was young, I was weak, sick and tortured everywhere. When I grew up, I was a little better. 2 1 year-old, failed to enter the university, and mixed up with the society very early. 3 1 year-old can get married and have children, and 4 1 year-old ruined selling iron. . . . . . . . . Hey, I don't even want to talk about it anymore. Anyway, it's all kinds of sad reminders.